Mia
It's not... pain. It doesn't feel great, but it doesn't hurt. Adrenaline probably had a lot to do with that, and now I'm just used to it.
Considering I'm 99% sure I was a second away from death, at home? Yeah. I was... there wasn't anything for me, at home. My girlfriend was dead, I had no family, no education. I was living as a hawk in Yellowstone, for the three years after the war. The only the I had left was some... friends. Alien friends. Long story.
Especially considering we weren't the most... yeah, Ew is succinct.
I have to say, since you probably don't remember, you being a Jedi sort of made my life. For the record.