And if you think in any way, shape or form, this is your fault? I will hurt you, and that is not an idle threat.
Hospitals are full of humans. Humans are capable of gross, horrible error. Fate, or gods, or whatever it is, is to blame for this. Not you. You loved her and take it from someone new to being loved - that is a blessing. To have a family and a relatively normal life - that's not something to be afraid of trying for. You would be a proud father with the love of your life at your side if fate hadn't intervened.
Rage, hurt, find someone to blame. But not yourself, or I swear I'll beat it out of you.
If anyone sees fit to blame you for this, they will hear from me.