Edward
Then don't get danger-happy. I'll probably be able to get you a few more, if you really want them, but it's not going to be any more pleasant, when you go through it the second, third, tenth time. Trust me on that.
I don't make the rules, I just have to play by them. But I'm serious. The worst is over. And you've earned my respect, something not many humans do. Anything you need, ask.