Alessa
I know. Those, I don't really feel guilty about.
The first was the baby in the future. The alien Thing was reaching out from its prison beyond, and if it got to the baby, there would have been no way to get it out. I had to make a split second decision, and since I didn't know how to close the gate...
After everything that happened to me in the future, I gave up. Started living in a bottle and smoking like a chimney. I didn't stop after things went back to normal, because I still remembered and I was trying to hide from the memories. I was too drunk to stop the wolf before it ripped the girl apart.
I don't drink anymore, and only occasionally have a smoke.