Lisa
Maybe... or maybe it is because you are stronger than you know.
I'm sorry. I-- if a person were dead, I would suggest moving on, but... yeah.
I came here to this world, directly after dying, directly from having a group of friends so close as to being family, and having someone who was sort of my girlfriend.
Here, in this world, I discover I am older, and that everyone I knew has moved on to other parts of their life, the family unit I knew was gone, and the girlfriend now has a live in lover who she cares about deeply.
I know what you mean about wanting something you can't have.
I wish... I wish I knew how to give what you wanted to you. You sound like someone who deserves it.
This is a stupid thing to say, but, have you thought about trying to hold a separation ceremony and trying to fully move on from... from the one you loved? I have no idea if it would help, but maybe?