I'm worried it's getting that far with Ollie. That I'm digging myself in so deep that I'm afraid to climb out. But I don't know! It's so hard, Jerrica. He doesn't keep his a secret. I don't know if he would understand why I have to keep mine. Well, I'm sure he would, but. I don't know, I don't know. I need to tell him. Just. Why is this so hard?