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Tyler Dayspring (boyanachronism) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-09-12 22:12:00

Entry tags:

alex rogan, belladonna rogan, cable, caris temn, marcus rogan

Fuck.

Goddammit

This sucks so much. How the hell am I going to get things right if I can't get back to the correct future?

It was bad enough when my home went poof. Now I can't even get back to something resembling the time I came from.

I don't think it's my fault, either.

I'm. . .aging. I mean, not huge things, like wrinkles and stuff, but I had to shave this morning, and I usually don't.

Which is. . . more upsetting that I'd like it to be.

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	thelonggame 2008-09-13 03:05 am UTC (link)
	Welcome to doing things the hard way. You'll be okay kid. This is the way things are meant to be. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 03:09 am UTC (link)
	But I don't want to be stuck here! The plan was to make things not suck as much, and then go home! This isn't my time, and this isn't when I'm supposed to be! It was fine when I could jump back and forth, but I like having my fucking options! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thelonggame 2008-09-13 10:07 am UTC (link)
	So now you are like everyone else. You get to live in the time you are working to make better. Now you are invested in this time. You changed your entire life to make this one better, but you still reserved the right to run away,m and now you can't. Sounds like something, somewhere, wants you to not have that choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 10:10 am UTC (link)
	Well something, somewhere, is a fucking prick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thelonggame 2008-09-13 10:12 am UTC (link)
	Or, you know, just wants you to live a normal life. Welcome to the human race. Now you really get to live as part of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 10:13 am UTC (link)
	Normal is both overrated and unattainable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thelonggame 2008-09-13 10:14 am UTC (link)
	You've got a lot to learn, kid. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-13 03:06 am UTC (link)
	Are-- are you okay? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Caris boyanachronism 2008-09-13 03:07 am UTC (link)
	I'm fine. Just. . . disappointed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-13 10:06 am UTC (link)
	Oh? I'm sorry? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caris boyanachronism 2008-09-13 10:11 am UTC (link)
	It's not your fault at all, beautiful. I just had this plan, you know? And now it's messed up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-13 10:13 am UTC (link)
	Ah... I can tell you one thing; plans never work. Never, no matter how good you are? There is always something that happens to change things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caris boyanachronism 2008-09-13 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	It's just, frustrating. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-13 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	Well, no offense, but so is most of life. This is something you need to deal with, you know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caris boyanachronism 2008-09-13 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. Would you like to come over tomorrow sometime? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-13 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	Sure! Maybe we can just watch some movies, and hang out, and do silly things? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caris boyanachronism 2008-09-14 12:56 am UTC (link)
	That sounds nice. I'll meet you at the portkey at noonish, if that's not too early. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marius decorator 2008-09-14 01:08 am UTC (link)
	Okay. Sounds good to me. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	petitmort 2008-09-13 10:17 am UTC (link)
	You're going to regret yelling at him in a couple days, sweetie. Are you alright? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 10:18 am UTC (link)
	I don't care. Is it so wrong to use what I have to do what needs to be done? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	petitmort 2008-09-13 10:20 am UTC (link)
	Only if you let it consume your entire life. Which, you know, you did. How many years did you spend training to come back in time and do this? You spent your entire adult life so focused on your goals, you forgot to live. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	We can't all do things only if they benefit us, Mom. Someone has to help for no reason, sometime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-13 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	...Well, now, that was classy. Working on alienating people for a living now, or is it just a hobby, son? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	Great. That was out of line, but it's not your place to judge how I live my life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-13 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	We are your parents. A certain amount of that is natural. And isn't that a big part of what you came back to do? Judge the world and try to make it better? Everyone does it. Your mother and I just want you to be happy, but you acting like a spoiled child who's favorite toy just got taken away is not helping. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	I am happy. I was happy. I was doing what I wanted to do, and that's what you guys said was important. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

laststarfighter
2008-09-13 09:00 pm UTC (link)

And so you have to change now. It's nice to be able to do what makes you happy, but if the world says you can't well, guess what, calling your mom in other words a selfish bitch, is not going to help things.

It's time to wake up, and realize you plunged yourself into one of the most volatile periods of history, to help, or so you say. Well, you can;t do that if your mind and heart is in the future. You did not pick one, and so nature and reality did it for oyu.,

I am sorry for your loss, but you chose to lose. You chose to not act, and now, this is the price. None of us ever get to live two lives and be happy, Marius. One life, one way, one world.

Take a week off, breathe, walk about, and just look around you. This is your world now.

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	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 09:01 pm UTC (link)
	A week? You have no idea what you're asking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-13 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	If you can't take a week off, then you definitely need to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	What kind of logic is that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-13 11:48 pm UTC (link)
	Marius... you do good, you help a lot of people, but if you can't take a week off, it means you need to. You can;t save the world, or everyone yourself. You need to take some time for yourself, or you will burn out, badly. Your first responsibility is to take care of you, otherwise you will not be in any shape to take care of anyone else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-13 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	I guess. . . I've kind of made an ass of myself, huh? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-13 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	A little bit. We all have sooner or later. I guess it was your turn. An apology to your mother is probably in order, but I would suggest, just from my pov, that after a brief one with a promise for more later, a nice night or day to think, would help you. Only you can decide what to do, or how to act, but everything has repercussions. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-14 12:12 am UTC (link)
	Arg. Mom's going to kill me. Sorry, to both of you. You're right, Dad. I'll take some time off and get my head on straight. Damn, I need a Midol IV or something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-14 12:27 am UTC (link)
	She wont kill you. She might thwap you upside the head, and remind you of this for a very long time, but she wont kill you. Good. And if you need to talk, I am always around, okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-14 12:33 am UTC (link)
	Okay. I'll come by for dinner on Sunday, like we had planned, if Mom'll let me in the house. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-14 12:38 am UTC (link)
	Okay. See you then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boyanachronism 2008-09-14 12:41 am UTC (link)
	Love you both. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	laststarfighter 2008-09-14 12:47 am UTC (link)
	Love you too, son. (Reply to this) (Parent)