InsaneJournal

I've been debating posting this to you or not. I don't want to make things worse. I'm not trying to at all. It's not what I want. I just wanted... I do want to apologize. I know you said to stop it with the sorries and such and I know you don't want anything more to do with me. I don't expect a response back from you at all, it's not why I am sending this.

I am truly sorry for any hurt I have ever done to you. It was never my intent and yet my impulsiveness and not thinking did. I am truly sorry. It seems that no matter what form, time lord or human, I have that I just do not think. I am not attempting to give a pity party or sob story I think that's what humans refer to them as, I am simply stating what I know is a shortcoming.

I have forgotten, still tend to forget, that this is not the universe I came from. A universe where things were different for all of us. I am sorry for any hurts any versions of me that have bopped in and out of this universe have bestowed upon you and everyone. It was never *my* intent to hurt you. I speak for no other but this version of myself. I can not change what other mes have done. I can only apologize for this mind, this body, this self. And I am sorry.

I do not want this to dredge up old hurts or to start another fight. I do care for you, Sarah Jane. You may think otherwise, but I do. I wish I could change what has happened. I wish I could bring you Harry. *Your* Harry, not one with another version of you. I wish I could bring you your son. I wish so many things that I could do to make any life easy for my friends, but I can not. I just wanted you to know that. Beyond this note, I will respect what you asked of me. To leave you alone. I am sorry for the hurts I have inflicted. Truly I am.