Now that I have a chance to spam you, last_refrain, again- what should I start with? Gifs? Gifs. All the gifs, and all the fucks I can give you.
Really, the first thing I need to waffle on about, is the fact that you cornered me and my CDJ years ago, for a ridiculously obscure fandom. We pretty much clicked instantly, though now that I have gifs to represent us in an alternate universe, here goes:
Little else comes close to that representation, though having said that, I’ll probably trip over another gif that is a fuckton better! I may add to this entry later, but for now what I've written is enough for me to stop internally fdfsagsfgsagaf-ing.
You should be ashamed of yourself, you and your detective, doing certain actions, making suspicious decisions, and all round being a complete bastard. It’s completely unfair, but I welcome it, all the same. I would never ask you to change what you’ve been doing, or to tell me your plans, however small they may be. I trust you to do whatever you feel like, even if that involves procrastination, but we both know how to fix that~.
I wish I could just end this post here, with the words ‘I can’t even’. Back in our PSL, I could hardly wait to read your next reply, and the wait was even worse whenever a crisis was going on. To this day, I still can’t get over that fucking thread we did, and I’m pretty sure you know which one I’m referring to. It involved feels, a potential end to the friendship, more fucking feels, and then some. So really, to put it another way: FUCK YOU, YOU BASTARD! Nothing has come close to that level of FUCK, and I fucking love it, as much as anyone can love a fucking scene that shouldn’t technically end because it’s too bloody perfect, but it has to end, eventually. Even if characters get hurt, which happened, and even if we the players are left flailing and shrieking, dissolving into lesser forms of our true selves.
Or course, we could both want to be trapped in a pit of ‘what could happen next, what the fuck is going on, why haven’t we reached the end yet’. You are the original player, in my RP sandbox, who is responsible to setting up a level of fucked-up-but-fantastic that has yet to be surpassed. Not that I’m hoping said thread will be outdone, but, you never know. I didn’t know we’d get to that particular point in that thread, or have my character do what he did, to have your character respond in kind, and.. jesus fuck. Fuck this. Fuck the characters, fuck our PSL, fuck it all; they should just get over themselves and accept that their lives are indefinitely fucked.
Did you just see all the fucks I can give you? Are you more aware of what I can throw at you? DO YOU? You fucking should by now, because Gif Wars are common, we might as well have not split for that 1 (2? 3?) year break or what have you. We should be writing again, I demand it, but it probably has to wait until certain things piss off. Like Real Life. Life gets in the way of a lot. It prevents us from many things
I feel that we’ve accomplished a lot together, though it isn’t something that can actually be measured. It just is. Accept it, and if you won’t, I’m going to spam you with things in our private bunker. There are a lot of posts on Tumblr. that always make me think of you, and I wish I could link even a quarter of that fucking content, but me and my tagging system is made of fail in epic proportions.
As a substitute, the best that I can manage is that if there was a desert island, I’d make sure you were shipwrecked with me there; if we were in class somewhere, I’d be playing Favourites and choose you first, amongst other scenarios. If instant messengers / real-time chat was still available, I’d spam you the second I see you sign on, but even then I wouldn’t do that— because that’s rude. I try to reserve the spammy spam for when you’re available for spam.
Did I already say fuck you? Can I say it again? Fuck. I don’t know who deserves more fuck-you’s; you, or your character. I can’t really say both, as you are not your character, and vice versa, but still… if this was someone else playing him, it’d be different. What do, except to say FUCKING CHRIST HOW CAN YOU DO THIS. I can’t even find a fucking relevant-to-our-interests gif that explains everything, except maybe for this one:
Having said enough fucks for the moment, is it acceptable for Watson to apologise? It’s too late, but, you know. Fuck. It needs to be said, and more.