Rodolphus laughed. "Yes, Lucius is indeed obsessed with his hair and it might interfere with his ability to focus on anything else. And my brother... I don't know, honestly. I haven't seen him in a while but the last time... He's a Death Eater. He believes in what the Dark Lord says, and... I can't take the risk of letting him know. I can't trust anyone."
He watched her and it actually hurt him to see her so... vulnerable. He knew she hated being called that but in these moments, she just was. "I wish I could stay here with you too. I wish we'd met sooner; maybe everything would've been different. But we'll never know, I guess." He sighed. "It's not... worse. Or maybe it is. I never believed in it. Bellatrix convinced me when I was younger but... I only joined to please her. Which was, obviously, a stupid idea but at the time being with her was the only thing I cared about. And it was exciting to be a part of that small, powerful group. And the first time I met you, I already kind of fell for you, so... nothing would be different." He gave her a small, almost shy smile and touched her cheek. "It's always been difficult for me to go to him. You just... give me a reason to... well, come back alive."
He gave her a smile and kissed her forehead. "And I know you've been thinking about Obliviating me. Don't even try," he murmured, hugging her. "First of all, you wouldn't manage because I'm way too fast." He smiled and bit her shoulder teasingly. "And it wouldn't make any difference. Having you, remembering you just makes it all more... bearable."
He thought for a moment. "No one really knows Bellatrix. That's what's so fascinating about her. She's mysterious and unpredictable. It's fascinating and scary at the same time. I can't explain why I fell for her. It's just that she seemed... unattainable and I always want things I think I can't have." He smiled a little. "Just like you. I know I always seem confident - and I am. But I actually wasn't sure at all if you'd even want to... spend time with me."
He raised both eyebrows at her next words and shook his head. "I won't get tired of this," he said quietly. "I will always come back to you, unless I really can't. You mean more to me than you can possibly imagine, Tonks, and you're not in second place. You're..." He sighed. "I know it sounds impossible but I love both of you, and I might even love you a bit more than her; probably because I know you care about me, and I'm not so sure she cares about me at all, sometimes. And you may not be my first love but that doesn't change the fact that I do love you. And it's not your fault that we have to sneak around and keep this a secret. It's my fault, and if I could change it, I would. But, for now at least, it's the only way for me to see you and as long as I get to see you, I'm happy." He paused. "Besides, the sneaking around does make it more exciting, doesn't it?"