As much as Lloyd wanted to say yes, he knew he would be the one compromising, the one giving up what he wanted in order to be with half a man in half of a relationship. He'd be one of Garret's boys, and Garret wouldn't be his. If he looked closely Garret may have seen these thoughts pass through Lloyd's eyes as well as the ache of the desire that tugged him towards agreeing with this... but it had taken Lloyd moving on for Garret to even admit anything and Lloyd couldn't commit to half a dream. "I want my house," he whispered quietly. "I want my family. I want to be able to call someone my husband.I know you will always need me, and want me around, I will always want to have you in my life. But as much as it may be romantic to agree to be lovers, you will always be much more to me than just a date here and there and I don't want my future to rely on appointments." Lloyd rest his head on Garret's shoulder then, breathing him in. "I've waited ten years to feel you inside of me again, to taste you, to get lost. I want that, even if we think it'll be the last time. I want it. I want you."