Jonathan Reznick-Quinn (rezidentsk8er) wrote in tiberiusswann, @ 2012-04-12 21:40:00 |
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Entry tags: | rez, riley |
Who: Rez and Riley
When: Night
Where: Riley's house
What: Working out some frustration
Rated: NSFW
After debating for a few minutes whether or not to wake River, he made sure she had the baby monitor and a note from him, as well as the phone in case she needed to call for help, right next to her on the bed before he left. Chances were that everything would be fine while he was gone since both the kids usually slept through the night, but he wasn't taking chances. He hated leaving like this but Riley would do the same for him so he was going to regardless. It wasn't a long drive to Riley's house so it was only maybe half an hour since he'd received the text from the other man before he was climbing the steps to his house and knocking on the front door.
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Riley sighed as he sat on the stairs, really pissed at himself for what his alter ego did to his friend. He supposed it wasn't much to some people but he knew Fox and this was going to bother him for awhile. Maybe getting Rez to come over wasn't the best option, since every cell in his body was itching to put the ring on before he got there and fuck him too. Something wasn't right with the ring, it was becoming all he could think about after Ryan had sex with Fox. Riley looked up when he saw Rez's car pull in and he opened the door right after he knocked. "Hey."
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Addiction was a strong thing and Riley was exhibiting all the signs of that though Rez had no idea about that. He didn't even think he was using the ring again until he got the text from him and that had really caught him by surprise. He thought things were going well for the other guy, that he was doing okay with things, but apparently he was wrong. "What happened?" He asked, stepping inside.
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Riley shut the door and motioned for Rez to follow him into the kitchen where he had been making food. Riley either drank or baked when he was upset, today had been a baking day. He sat down in front of a plate of snickerdoodles and rubbed a hand over the back of his neck. "Ryan fucked Fox."
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Rez followed Riley through the house which smelled of cookies. That wasn't really a good sign. He knew the man baked when he was feeling upset. Or he drank. At least he wasn't drunk right now. Of course when the confession came, he was a little bit... surprised. Mostly because it wasn't anything nearly as bad as he had thought it would be. "Oh. Uhm... okay." Of course he didn't know about the whole thing with Fox and virgins and all that junk. Why would he? He barely knew the guy. And as far as he knew, he never had an issue with fucking pretty much anybody.
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Riley frowned at Rez and then picked up a cookie. "Fox won't sleep with virgins, it's kind of a thing with him so he's kinda not happy about it...but what's worse is when I came back I had no idea obviously but I got the feeling it happened. But now...all I want to do is put the damn thing on...like I can feel it in my skin." He frowned and then looked up at Rez. "Does that make sense?"
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Rez frowned as Riley spoke, especially when he got to the last part. "You're addicted. Makes perfect sense." He gave a small shrug of his shoulders and then exhaled a sigh before he asked, "Where's it at?" He'd come here for the purpose of taking it from him and he intended to do precisely that.
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Riley frowned back at him and looked confused. "But I don't understand how I can be addicted to a freaking ring I mean, it doesn't make sense."
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"You're not addicted to the ring, Riley. No addict is addicted to the drug or the act or.. whatever, they're addicted to the way that those things make them feel." Rez paused and then added, "It's your escape. That's what you're hooked on."
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Riley chewed on his lip and then frowned. "It think having sex while the ring is on makes it worse." He said softly and then glanced at him. "It took every ounce of willpower i had no to put it on before you got here."
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"Well you didn't," Rez smiled. "And I'm glad you didn't cuz... I don't think that woulda been the best idea." He exhaled a soft laugh. "Not sayin' that I would do anything with Ryan but uhm... River might be alright with me comin' over here to see you but I doubt she'd be alright with me comin' over here to see another woman."
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"No I didn't...because honestly your friendship means more to me than that." He broke the cookie he was holding and started to eat it. "River would get all jealous huh?" He frowned slightly at him. "why wouldn't she get jealous over me?"
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That was enough to make Rez smile a little. Obviously he meant more to him than Fox did. Or at least that was the way he was taking that statement. "Yeah, she prolly would." And then came that question, which made him grin somewhat sheepishly before he gave a small shrug of his shoulders and replied, "She thinks boy on boy action is.. hot."
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Riley ate the cookie, and glanced up at Rez. "I think I remember you telling me she was a jealous person." He said and then smiled when he saw Rez's smile. "Oh well you're kinda lucky there. You can get your fix and she won't be pissed about it."
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"Hell yeah. I mean.. not like Lily though." He frowned a little. "She'd let everybody know it and prolly do some castratin' while she was at it but River was always more.. passive about it." He shrugged his shoulders a bit. "I... always took advantage of that. I was such a dick to her. Always. It's.. I dunno." He frowned again. "I want things to be different now, ya know?" He shrugged a bit and then added, "Yeah, I guess I could. We ain't really talked about it other than, you know, her sayin' she'd wanna hear about it or whatever. Maybe even watch." He exhaled a soft laugh, drawing a hand back through his messy hair as he added, "Though I ain't too sure how I'd feel about that."
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Riley nodded as he spoke and then chewed on his lip. "You so need to treat her better now. I mean obviously this girl still loves you after all this time." He wiped crumbs off of his fingers and then sighed. "You have to do what you feel comfortable with babe, I mean she might like it but that doesn't mean you have to do it." He sighed and then smiled at him. "I'm glad she's here though, and she's not going to be sick anymore."
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"She does. She always has." Rez exhaled a soft laugh and then nodded his head. Of course his mind was only halfway in the conversation at this point. Now he was thinking about River and how much she loved him and about Lily and how much she loved him but how different it was, and how different he was, and how... one couldn't really replace the other. "Yeah. Yeah, me too." He paused and then added, "It's just... I dunno. It seems so soon, ya know? Like.. one day I'm still with Lily and then the next..." He frowned a bit and added, "I'm worried that I'm not like.. givin' myself enough time to not make the same mistakes all over again, ya know?"
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Riley looked at him and chewed on his lip. "I'm concerned you're not giving yourself any time at all. You're just falling into an old pattern with her and your sadness from Lily is making it more likely that you will just jump right into it to make yourself feel better. " He said softly and then reached over and took Rez's hand. "I know you love River, but are you being fair to her. I mean she's here now, she's going to become a shifter to see if it heals her and then you will have a little shifter family...is that what you want...for her to basically be your wife?"
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Rez wasn't sure how comfortable he felt talking to Riley about all of this right now. And he wasn't even sure why he wouldn't be comfortable talking to him about it since he talked to him about, well, pretty much everything up until this point. Still. "I don't.... I hadn't really...." He exhaled a breath. "I mean we have to try and make it work, ya know? For the kids. It's the right thing to do." He shrugged slightly as he added, "And I love her. I mean I've always loved her. Just.. you know, it might take a while before I'm really feelin'.. ready ready and I think she gets that."
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Riley nodded and then got up and went to the fridge for something to drink. "Want anything?" He asked as he looked in it. "Look you have to be responsible about it and decide if you're ready for something that's potentially this serious, and if you're not talk to her about it, explain it all out. I'm sure you will be with her when you're ready...I mean the love is there right?" Riley was surprised by how little this was bothering him...maybe his heart had finally given up. Was he a little jealous...yea but not like he would have been a few weeks ago.
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"Uhm... You got a coke?" He'd almost asked for a beer, but he shouldn't drink if he was driving back home later and he needed to drive back home later because he had the kids and River there that he shouldn't leave on their own for too long. Chloe and Ethan would be up and need things and River was sometimes too sick in the mornings to handle it. "Yeah, it's there just...." Rez exhaled a breath and then frowned. "I wasn't happy with Lily. Not really. There was... somethin' missin', ya know? And I wasn't... Well with guys that I've dated, I wasn't exactly... faithful so... that was never a problem so....." He paused again, debating whether or not he wanted to get into this right now. "I just don't know if I could ever like.. really be happy with just one or the other, no matter how much I love the other person."
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The older man nodded and pulled out a can, handing it to him. "Here ya go." He said as he opened his water and then sat back down. Riley looked up at Rez and listened to him as he spoke and then chewed on his bottom lip. "Do you need to have an open relationship with someone is that what you're saying?" He asked curiously, knowing when he was with Rez that wouldn't have been possible, they were extremely jealous over each other. He licked his lips and took another drink. "I mean maybe it's what you need?"
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"Thanks," Rez took the can, holding it between his hands but he didn't open it just yet. He frowned at Riley's question and then shook his head softly. "No, not really.. open just..." He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "I like sex with men. And with women. And it doesn't necessarily have to be like... I can fuck whoever, I just.. don't know if I could be happy settling for... you know, just one or the other."
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Riley smiled at him and nodded. "I know what you mean...I mean I know what I want, that isn't a problem for me, I can easily give up sex with a woman but I can understand where you are coming from. But with River you may not have to...if you talk to her about it." Riley always wondered if three way relationships worked or not. He obviously never had one and it always confused him, everyone would have to be very secure of themselves in the relationship.
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"All women?" Rez asked, a brow arching slightly. "Even Charlie?" As far as he knew, they were still sleeping together, not that they talked about it. He didn't want to hear about it. Riley was his ex and Charlie was married to his nephew so... he didn't want to know. "Yeah, I know. I mean it's... possible, but I dunno how plausible that really is." He frowned. "I mean you know me. I wouldn't want her with someone else and I wouldn't want you-" he caught himself and corrected. "Him. I wouldn't want him being with someone else either. That's what I meant to say." And he finally opened the Coke, focusing his attention on it to avoid that slip of the tongue.
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Riley winced when he mentioned Charlie and then shrugged. "If I was in love with him and that's what he asked of me, then yes I would stop sleeping with Charlie. I mean I love her but it's not like she doesn't have other men to give her attention...her husband, Wesley if he was single would be falling all over her." He said flatly and then froze as he was picking up his bottle. Did Rez just say what he thought he did? Riley wanted to ask, god he wanted to poke at that so badly...and fuck forgive him but he couldn't let it go. "Is that what you'd want? River and me?" He asked calmly as he sipped his water.
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"Jealous much?" Rez asked, picking up on that tone. Of course he wasn't sure which end that jealousy came from, because of Charlie or because of Wesley. But considering he didn't talk about Trevor that way, he could make a guess on that one and probably be right on the money. Rez had hoped that he would let that go, that he wouldn't say anything about it and pretend that Rez had never said it, but of course he didn't. He frowned, considering his answer for a moment before he replied, "In a perfect world, yes." But he doubted the world was that perfect. Riley couldn't be happy that way, he was sure of it. And so it was best to just leave those thoughts in the category of wishful thinking.
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Riley narrowed his eyes at Rez and then stuck out his tongue. "Why yes I am actually, it would be nice to have someone for a change." He picked at the label on the bottle and then sighed. "That would be nice in a perfect world and I personally can handle a woman involved but...not forever I don't think, and I don't know if I could when I loved the man as much as I love you." Riley knew that he couldn't have a relationship like that most likely...but he had his moments when any part of Rez would have been worth it.
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"You act like you been alone forever. It ain't been that long." And besides, Riley had people who loved him. Maybe it wasn't exactly the way that he wanted but he had them still. "Yeah, well.. I figured so..." Rez gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "And you deserve more than that. So does she. Still, I cann't just..." He exhaled a sigh and shook his head softly. "Turn off the things that I feel, ya know? It don't work that way. And when I try to like... just push it aside and make shit work then I end up... resenting things or fuckin' up anyway." It was really just a matter of time before he would have ended up screwing around on Lily with some guy. The only reason it hadn't happened already was because of how complicated shit was and how much more devastating that would be for her versus a normal woman.
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Riley looked at him for a moment and then shrugged. "Long enough, besides maybe I hate being alone."He said softly and then looked at him. "I want more than that, maybe she will be happy, you don't know unless you talk to her about it." Riley leaned back in his chair. "I know you do." Riley said softly and then chewed on his bottom lip. "You...really held out for her...I wanted to push you so bad." He admitted quietly. "I almost didn't listen to you when you told me no."
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"I think she'd deal with it, just like she's always dealt with everything, but I don't think she'd be happy. I don't think anyone'd be happy." Except for Rez, of course. He'd be happy to have what he wanted from both ends of the spectrum but he didn't think anyone else would really be happy with the idea of sharing him. Even the three guys that had gotten married, that had committed to that lifestyle with one another, weren't happy most of the time. Or at least he knew that Rorie wasn't. "I love her," Rez said softly. "Even if she doesn't..." he paused and rewrote that. "Even if she can't be with me because of the kids, I still love her. I'm still in love with her. And fucking someone else or even... makin' love with someone else doesn't just... change that." He exhaled a deep breath and added, "I wouldn't mind havin'some way to just step outside of my life too but I can't, ya know? I got my kids to think about and.. so do you."
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Riley pointed at Rez with a grin. "Except you babe." He grabbed another cookie and then frowned setting it down and going for the cupcakes he made this morning. "Help yourself by the way, I'm going to have to work out like crazy tomorrow but whatever." He licked icing off his thumb and then looked at Rez. "I know you love her, I'm sure River knows you love Lily. Only an idiot would think everything was different like a week later." He said with a sigh and then reached for another cupcake. Yes the reason Rez was here, which had nothing to do with all of this conversation. "I know I do...I know." Riley sighed as he looked down at the cupcake, picking at it now.
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"And that'd be selfish, huh?" Or maybe that was what he needed to do. Maybe it was time to make himself happy instead of everyone else happy. But then again, he'd done that before, when he was younger, on drugs, and River had sufferered because of it. He didn't wanna do that again, not to anyone, not even if he had to figure out a way to be happy being unhappy. "I'm good. Tryin' to lay off the sweets since, ya know, River can't have 'em." He shrugged his shoulders slightly. "So you gonna give it to me? That's what I came here for."
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"Depends on the other person's reaction to it. I mean if they enjoy it just as much as you do than of course it's not selfish." He finished off the cupcake and shoved them away when Rez said he was cutting back. "That's very nice of you, I'm sure she appreciates it." He said with a smile, Riley was a little turned around about all of this, he felt the need to be jealous but he just couldn't seem to get the emotional energy to do so at the moment. Riley was pulled out of his thoughts for the moment when Rez asked him if he was going to give it to him. "Oh..um...yeah I...give me a sec."
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I guess so.. yeah. I mean maybe there is somebody out there who..." Rez gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "Who wouldn't mind or whatever." But he wasn't so sure. And he wasn't going to get his hopes up either. This whole conversation was making him feel like not having it anymore which was why he changed it back to the topic at hand, the whole ring thing. It was better to get it over and done with. "Riley," Rez said, warning in his tone. "You might as well forget about havin' second thoughts cuz I'm not leavin' without that ring."
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Riley pouted at him when he used that tone, he wasn't used to Rez being so grown up honestly. "Yeah I know...I...planned on giving it to you I just...the idea of it sucks right now." He sighed as he got up and pulled the chain off from around his neck. He watched the ring spin at the end of the chain and his stomach clenched. "I don't want to give this to you at all. You know that right?" He asked as he bit his lip and then held the chain out.
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Rez's eyes moved to the chain the moment that Riley took it off. He leaned toward him, palm outstretched for Riley to put the ring in his hand. "I know you don't. But I also know that you're stonger than that ring so... You're going to give it to me, even if you don't want to."
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Riley winced as he let the chain drop into Rez's hand and then got up and went for his alcohol cupboard. "fuck that sucks." He mumbled to himself as he got out the whiskey and took a long sip of it..
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Rez cupped his hand around the chain once the other man dropped it. He ran his thumb over the ring for a moment, looking at the silver and briefly wondering if it would work for him the way that it did for Riley. But then he pushed that thought aside and hooked the chain around his neck, tucking it beneath his shirt. "You did the right thing by callin' me."
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"So you say." He said with a slight frown and then bit his lip. "I know I did, sorry I'm just not happy about it...you know that." Riley started to put away the food, his mild ocd not able to handle it out and exposed.
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"Yeah, it's cool. I get it." Rez smirked a little and then added, "Doin' the right thing ain't always easy. Actually it's pretty much never easy so..." He shrugged a bit, falling silent and sipping his coke as Riley worked to put the sweets away. There was something on his mind, something very specific actually, and he was trying to put it on the back burner and get it out of there but that just wasn't working. So finally he decided to just say it and get it over with. "Do you wanna have sex?"
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Riley blinked at him when he asked him to have sex. A bit of a random surprise but hey he really wasn't going to turn down the sex, it was usually always mind melting. "Yeah I do." He smiled at him before putting the last container away.
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"Yeah?" Rez asked, a brow arching slightly. "That's.. all?" He frowned a little and added, "What happened to not letting me use you?" He remembered that conversation well. Then again, a lot had changed since then. A lot had changed between them. And sex would be exactly that, just sex. And he was pretty sure they were both in a place right now where they got that. In this instance, they'd be using each other. And maybe that was wrong in some ways, but as long as it was mutual, was it really all that bad?
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Riley nodded and crossed his arms over his chest. "Yeah that's all. It's nothing more than that and we both know it." He said simply and then shrugged at Rez's other question. "I'd be using you just as much as you are using me. I don't care if you don't." Riley said as he walked over to the smaller man.
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As much as he wanted to agree with him, Rez couldn't help but ask himself whether or not that would really be all that it was. Just sex, nothing more. They'd never been able to do that before but maybe things were different now. He wanted to think that they possibly could be. So when Riley came to stand in front of him, after considering it for a moment longer, he moved a hand up to stroke lightly along the other man's jaw before fingers laced themselves in his hair and he tugged his face toward him, capturing those full lips in a deep, hard kiss.
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Riley pushed all those questions out of his mind, even if the aftermath of the sex hurt him a little he could deal with it. He tried to think of this as a one night stand type deal to keep himself detached. He looked down at Rez, watching the emotions in his face and then groaned when he kissed him hard. A really good fuck would kind of be perfect right now, he thought to himself.
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This was a bad idea and Rez had a feeling that they both knew it but there was nothing to really stop them right now. Sure, there was River at home with the kids, but they weren't even serious yet, not really, and she wouldn't be hurt by it so there wasn't much to deter him. And what did Riley have to keep him from doing this? Nothing really. So in spite of how bad of an idea it was, this was what was going down apparently. That groan sent a shiver racing up and down the smaller man's spine as his free hand moved to Riley's waist, tugging him toward him, pressing their bodies together. He deepened the kiss, maybe even kissed him a bit harder, probably because he could tell that they both sort of wanted it that way.
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It really was a terrible idea, that could blow up in their faces but it wasn't going to stop either one of them. Riley and Rez had really good sex together and that's all Riley was really thinking about. River would probably want to hear every detail Rez wanted to share when he got home so she wouldnt be hurt at all. Riley pulled his shirt off when Rez pulled him closer and growled into the kiss, hard and rough was definitely the best choice for tonight.
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The response that he got from that roughness was enough to send chills up and down Rez's spine yet again. The growl was answered by one of his own as that hand in the other man's hair roughly jerked his head back and Rez trailed his tongue down along Riley
's adam's apple. He nipped at the line of his jaw then, coming up to bite at his ear, and then whispered, "I know I hurt you. I know a part of you is still angry about that, maybe always will be angry. And tonight I want you to give that to me. All of it. No holds barred. Deal?" He needed to be punished. He felt like he did anyway. And maybe in some strange, sick way, this would make him feel better. He wanted to feel better than he did right now.
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Riley let his head be pulled back and shivered slightly as Rez's tongue went over his throat and jaw. He swallowed as Rez started to whisper, his eyes going wide at what Rez was saying. Riley pulled back a bit and looked into Rez's eyes for a moment. He looked at him hard and then smiled slowly at him. It wasn't his affectionate smile, this was a bit different. "Deal." He said before tangling his fingers in Rez's hair and tugged firmly as he pulled him in again, kissing him hard. Riley put some of his anger into that kiss, biting at Rez's lower lip, trying to not draw blood.
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Affection was great. And Rez loved Riley. He did. But sometimes he needed a bit of roughness, a bit of edge. That was why things had been so great with Fisher. They could be tender one minute and violent the next and he liked it that way. He'd always liked it that way. He was pretty sure that the beast inside of him craved that sort of thing. Sometimes he just needed it. That single word sent another shiver racing up his spine before a groan parted his lips and was stifled by Riley's lips against his own. He could feel it in that kiss and he gave it back, that anger, hands clutching at the other man but also kind of pushing at him, like he was trying to get away from him, but he wasn't, of course. He just felt both drawn to him and repelled by him at once right now perhaps because of all the things they had been through together.
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Affection was great, but it wasn't always necessary. Eventhough he loved Rez desperately, he could do this, not a problem. Riley actually enjoyed rougher sex more often than he liked to admit. Riley dug his short nails into Rez's waist, flashes of memories in his mind. He lifted the shirt enough to wrap the bottom of it around his hand so it was tight on Rez's body. He broke the kiss and tugged on the shirt. "Upstairs." Riley said as he headed for the staircase, totally planning on not making it up stairs.
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The tugging of the shirt, the nails in his skin, it was really starting to make the smaller man hot and hard. And the kiss, fuck, it could quite possibly leave him breathless and wanting more when the other man pulled away. Rez grinned at the request and then took off behind Riley, making it up a few steps before he grabbed him and yanked him to him again, kissing him once more, tongue dancing with his as his hands roamed along the other man's upper body and then down between his thighs to grasp that growing hardness through the fabric of his jeans.
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Riley was well aware they were not going to get past the stairs and he was more than okay with that. He almost telegraphed Rez’s move before he made it, and turned around before the other man yanked him against the front of his body. Riley groaned as Rez squeezed his dick through the denim and pushed the smaller man onto the stairs. It wasn’t comfortable, and it was also in the middle of the foyer in front of the front door. Riley knew no one would see them but it didn’t stop the thrill of it. He growled in Rez’s ear and pushed himself against the other man’s thigh.
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Fuck, it had been a while since he'd felt like this. It wasn't just want, or even being horny because he felt like that pretty much every single day, it was more like... desperation almost. It was like he had been waiting for this to happen and everything had been building up to this moment and it was finally here and it was like.. too much almost, too intense. The stairs weren't comfortable, but he didn't care. He didn't even feel them right now. It was like all sensation in his body had concentrated itself in two places, his lips whicch were crushed against Riley's own and his thigh where the other man's dick pressed against him. He nipped at Riley's ear, breathing hot and heavy as he whispered in a bit of a growl, "Fuck me."
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It had been building, and this moment was really intense for the both of them, Riley didn’t need to be an empath to figure that out. He ground his erection against Rez’s thigh as they kissed, biting and sucking more than actually kissing. Riley felt that familiar shiver go down his back when Rez told him to fuck him. He nodded and pulled back a bit, long enough to get his own jeans open and then started to undo Rez’s. “It’s gonna hurt if I don’t get something.” He said, his voice deeper and gravely from his lust. Riley pulled Rez’s jeans down below his ass, a lot rougher than he normally would before slipping down to suck on the man for a moment. Riley couldn’t resist, he loved sucking dick so much.
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That same shiver raced down Rez's spine as he spoke because he knew it was going to happen. It had been a long time, too long really, since he'd been fucked like that, and he wanted it. Fuck, he'd wanted it for a while now. And now he had no reason whatsoever not to have it. "I don't care," he replied, hands sliding down Riley's backside now that his jeans and boxers were out of the way. "I want it to hurt." He wanted to feel it tomorrow and maybe even the day after that. He wanted to leave here walking like he'd been fucked raw. A moan parted his lips as his jeans and boxers were pushed down and that warm mouth with those amazingly full lips wrapped around his cock. He pushed his hips upward, driving himself deeper into Riley's mouth as a hand moved to entangle fingers in his hair, tugging on the blond strands.
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Riley groaned at the idea of just fucking Rez, not making it easy…it was so tempting, but Rez hadn’t done this in awhile so it was gonna hurt…Riley figured he would try to make it easier for him. As he sucked Rez into his throat he felt him pulling on his hair and he hummed around him, before sliding his dick back out, reaching down and pushing Rez’s legs up, practically folding him in half on the stairs, Riley’s holding him in place as he leaned down and started to flick his tongue over his hole. If lube wasn’t forthcoming there were other ways to help Rez loosen up.
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The humming made Rez groan out loudly, arching his hips into his mouth once more as he gave his hair a bit of a tug. And then he whimpered as those lips left his dick, which was throbbing now, practically pleading for attention. But what he got next was just as good, that tongue making him shiver all over, a breath exhaled in two words, "Fuck, Rye...." He felt like he was trembling all over, hands roaming up and down Riley's upper body, touching him whereever he could.
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Riley knew what buttons to push with Rez, they always did well with this part of a relationship, sex had always been intense. He always knew that was part of why it was hard to let go, no one really had been as good with him as Rez had. Riley continued to work over Rez’s ass, his tongue, his fingers, he wanted the smaller man on edge, his muscle loosened up for when he pushed himself inside.
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The addition of the fingers was enough to have Rez panting and writhing beneath Riley's touch. Just that bit of penetration felt so fucking good. This was why he would never be able to be happy with just a woman. But at the same time, he loved sex with women just as much as he did with men, so therein lie the problem. But he wasn't thinking about any of that right now. He was thinking about how fucking amazing this felt, and how every stroke only made him want more. He whimpered, breathing out a single word. "Please"
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Riley was really enjoying himself, the way Rez squirmed for him was amazing. He licked his lips and then smiled at him when he said please. Riley pushed two fingers all the way in and pressed on his spot for a minute before pulling them out and letting Rez’s body unfold. Riley leaned his lower half over Rez’s mouth. “Get me wet for you.” Riley said as he tugged on Rez’s hair a little, mostly to make sure he was still in the moment and not lost in sensations.
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Shit, he needed to be careful doing crap like that. Just that minute or so of sensation against his prostate made him nearly shoot his load. His cock pulsed and throbbed in response and it was all he could do to barely whimper. And then the moment passed and he still felt shakey as Riley moved up him on the stairs. He was a bit lost, but the tug to the hair was enough to bring him back to the moment and he lifted his bright blue eyes up to meet Riley's gaze. A smirk formed upon his lips for only a second before he was taking the other man's dick into his mouth, moaning around the shaft. All the time, as he began to work his mouth and tongue around Riley's dick, he held that gaze, intense want burning behind those eyes.
~~~
Riley knew just how far to push Rez’s body, he hadn’t forgotten. He swallowed when he saw that smirk and then groaned at the sensation of sliding into Rez’s mouth. Riley stared into those blue eyes, so intense was his need at the moment he almost fucked into Rez’s mouth until he choked but Riley just pulled out after a few minutes and shivered as he slid down Rez’s body, adding his own saliva to his dick before spreading Rez’s cheeks and slowly starting to push inside him.
~~~
The anticipation was killing him. He groaned a bit when Riley pulled away from him, slipping his dick from his lips, and then began sliding down his body. He shifted so that he wasn't entirely uncomfortable on the stairs, a silent prayer running through his head that Trevor or Mara wouldn't come out and see the two of them at some point. He didn't really care if Charlie did. But those thoughts were quickly forgotten as Riley began to push inside of him, a moan parting his lips as his body trembled. He arched off of the steps and up into him, enjoying the pain, the pressure, the pleasure that he knew would soon enough come. His hands slid up the other man's broad shoulders and fingers entangled in his hair. "Kiss me," he managed to croak out.
~~~
Riley had to go very slowly as he pushed into Rez, the pressure was so intense. He might have whimpered a little himself as he pushed all the way in. Riley was using his empathy to sense anyone coming their way so he felt secure no one would find them. As Rez arched into him he groaned and then happily leaned down to kiss him as he asked. Riley kissed him deeply, again nipping at his bottom lip as he started to roll his hips in and out of Rez’s body.
~~~
Fuck, he felt good. This felt good. It always had. He'd always fit him like he was fucking made to be inside him, and vice versa. This was the one part of their screwed up relationship that they had always gotten right. The sex was always amazing, from the first time to the last time, though he wasn't so sure that this really would be the last. As much as Rez wanted this to be heated and angry and carnal and to not mean anything to either of them other than just fucking, that's not how it was. It might have been how it started, or how they needed it to be in order to even get to this point, but now that they were here, there was a lot more to that kiss than just sex. And maybe that was why his mind was having a hard time focusing exclusively on the present and letting the past stay in the past. As amazing as this felt, and it felt amazing, his mind was on something else, a question that he had to ask as he pulled away breathless from the kiss. "Did you kiss him?"
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Riley was barely thinking now, he was lost in the feeling of Rez's body around him. He gasped at sensations and then stared down at the smaller man's face, trying to ignore all the things he usually felt when he was fucking him or when they switched. This was always so intense and no matter how hard they tried the emotions always wove their way in, making it nearly impossible for it to be just sex. He groaned Rez's name as he pushed all the way inside him and just held himself there, needing a second to focus before he could speak. "Did I kiss who?" He asked in that growling voice he usually got during sex.
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Rez hands slid down Riley's back and gripped at his ass, holding him deep inside of him as Riley focused for a moment. "You know who," Rez replied. It was the one incident that had really bothered him. Charlie didn't bother him. Riley could fuck her all he wanted and Rez wouldn't really care about that other than because of Trevor and since he didn't seem to mind, Rez didn't mind. But Finn on the other hand... "He can't have you," Rez said in a breathy voice. He let that statement sit for a moment before he began to roll his hips a bit, working himself on Riley's hard cock. "You're mine," he whispered, then nipped at the other man's lower lip. "Still. Always." Was it wrong of him to feel that way? Sure. He'd been with Lily, afterall. He intended to be with River when the time was right for them to make that decision. But that didn't matter. That didn't change anything about how he felt, how he'd always felt. Which was possessive and territorial, among other things.
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Riley licked his lips as his mind went over the two guys Rez could possibly be talking about. Then when he made his next statement it eliminated Fox. "Why would Finn want me?" He smiled at him and then leaned down to kiss Rez. "We did kiss but there was no emotion to it. It was just our powers blowing a few lusty feelings out of proportion." He said, staying still, eyes widening when Rez said he was his. Riley started to thrust into Rez again, biting at his neck, groaning at his words. "Always." He murmured as he tangled his fingers in Rez's hair as he sped his hips up.
~~~
"Why wouldn't he?" Rez asked, being entirely serious about that. Riley was definitely wantable. And even if Finn was convinced that he didn't like guys, that he wanted to be with a woman or whatever, he was still at least halfway gay and no amount of fucking girls was going to change that. He'd be lucky to land a guy like Riley but.. "I don't fuckin' care what it was, Riley. He still can't have you." And maybe he was getting a bit angry now, a bit... agressive but he felt very strongly about this. And he felt better when Riley repeated that word, the quickened pace of his hips distracting him from the feelings that were threatening to overtake him. Instead now, he was caught up in the moment, gripping Riley's hair and tugging his head up so that he could kiss him again.
~~~
Riley smiled at that question, it was just...so Rez. Finn did not like Riley much, for probably a lot of reasons but he was pretty sure the big one was because he was angry that he liked getting fucked up the ass more than he'd ever want to admit and it freaked him the fuck out. Riley was a little startled by the possessiveness coming out of Rez, he hadn't talked like this in a really long time. "Even if he wanted me, he will never have me." Riley growled into Rez's ear, biting at the lobe. He lifted his head as the other man was pulling on his hair, kissing him back.
~~~
Finn had been pissed at Rez about that fact more than once too so he was pretty sure it was the same for Riley. Still, the thought of the two of them together still made his blood boil, and maybe a little bit of that had to do with rumors he'd heard that Lily was living with Finn now which probably meant that he was fucking her now too and made it almost impossible for Rez to not want to go find that guy and rip his fucking head off. But he had more important things to worry about, like his family. And after tonight, he'd have even more things to think about still, like all of this. The sex was rough, hard, and yet the moment itself still felt tender, like they were fighting against themselves and losing the battle for sure. Heart pounding in his chest, pain and pleasure pulsing through him, Rez pulled away from the kiss and whispered, his tone somewhat demanding, "Say it." He knew he felt it. He could feel it. And he wanted to hear it now too.
~~~
Riley didn't know the rumors about Finn and Lily but if he did he would be annoyed on Rez's behalf, the guy apparently had a thing for his best friend's ex's. Riley continued to fuck into his lover, hard and deep, kissing him all the while. Then suddenly Rez pulled away and he wanted Riley to say something, riley at first wasn't sure what he wanted him to say. He looked into those blue eyes with his green ones and shoved all the way inside, staying still as he spoke. 'I love you." He growled out before lowering his face down again and kissing Rez a little softer for the moment.
~~~
Maybe there was something wrong with him, some sort of reason, some malfunction inside, that made it so he needed people to love him. Whatever the reason, that's how it was. Rez needed Riley to love him. And River. And he wanted Lily to love him too, enough to stand by him, but she didn't. And he wanted Finn to love him enough to not fuck his ex-boyfriend, or his ex-girlfriend, and that obviously wasn't the case either. He was hurting right now and this was how he dealt with hurt, by finding a distraction to make him feel good. If it wasn't drugs or booze it was sex and right now sex seemed like the only thing he could really indulge in. Still, this was more than just sex, more than just fucking, and with tonight would come a whole new mess of things but that didn't stop him from whispering, "I love you too," just before Riley kissed him, his tongue pushing its way into the other man's mouth to dance with his own as his body trembled and tensed and grew ever closer to the inevitable end.
~~~
If there was something wrong with Rez, Riley had the same flaw. He hated when someone he was with moved on, he wanted them to still need him, love him. It wasn't healthy, but it was the truth. What they were doing, was a fantastic distraction from Riley's life, the fucking ring and knowing he had sex with Fox...just not in this body. But he couldn't lie to himself and say that was all this was, a distraction. When Rez said he loved him, Riley felt that flip in his stomach that he always did and it scared him just a little. He tangled his tongue with Rez's, feeling his body starting to spasm a little on it's way to orgasm.
~~~
Rez felt that too, that tension that was like.. almost nauseating in a way. But he pushed those feelings deep down inside, buried for now, and focused instead on how fucking amazing it felt to have Riley pulsating inside of him. He broke the kiss with a groan as a particularly deep stroke found that spot deep inside of him and he began to rock his hips with a bit more purpose now. It was clear where they were both headed, and clear that they both wanted to get there. And talking wasn't going to make that happen, this was. They could figure out everything else some other time.
~~~
Riley was thinking too much, and it was very distracting to what he was doing. He pushed the thoughts out of his head and started to refocus on his thrusts and angling himself just right. Both their bodies were tense and right on the edge, Riley wanted to push them both over. He angled himself to constantly rub over that spot inside Rez,; Riley knew when the other man came, the spasms around his dick would bring him to orgasm.
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It didn't take long for Rez to forget about everything else and just focus on the way this felt. He dropped one hand down to the stairs beneath him, supporting himself to keep his body angled just right so that Riley could find that spot with each and every thrust. He was moaning now too, groaning, whimpering, trying his best to keep the noise down so that the people sleeping on the second floor wouldn't hear them but he wanted Riley to hear it, to know that it was him who was making him feel this way. And once he'd found that angle, there was no holding back. Rez groaned out loudly, maybe a bit too loudly, his entire body tensing and shuddering. He felt his cock begin to pulse, thanks to the way that Riley was manipulating his prostate, and he knew it wasn't going to be long. His free hand grasped at the other man, pulling his upper body in tight and close, his lips just a breath away from Riley's own, and then he felt it, that explosion that went from the core of himself and rippled outward.
~~~
All Riley could think was how fucking good it felt to be inside him, the way his body clenched around him, the sounds escaping his lips. Riley moved into Rez when he pulled on him, burying his face in his neck. He groaned out his name when he felt Rez orgasm and then sped up his hips, chasing his own. It didn't take long before it crashed over him and he came hard inside Rez, holding himself up above him barely as he finished with his name on his lips.
~~~
Sex with a guy was messy. Both Rez's stomach and Riley's as well were covered in cum from his orgasm and he could feel that hot, sticky fluid seeping out of his ass from Riley's orgasm. But he liked it. He liked the way that that felt, having that tangible proof. Girls came, yeah, and sometimes there was fluid involved, but it wasn't the same as a guy. It wasn't as... well, he wasn't sure what it wasn't only what it was and it wasn't the same as fucking a guy. His lips found Riley's own in a breathy kiss once he'd composed himself enough to do so and he hummed against them before pulling away with a hiss. "I can't.. Could we like.. move to the sofa or somethin'?" Now that the rush of passion was starting to wear off, he was feeling the steps digging into his back and it wasn't exactly fun.
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Sex with a guy was the only way Riley would have one of those type of orgasms where you couldn't move after, or almost black out for a moment. He loved pretty much everything about it. He carefully slid out of Rez's ass and kissed him back when he realized he was being kissed. Riley made a soft sound when Rez pulled away and then glanced at him when he hissed. "Oh yeah of course." Riley murmured as he started to get up, holding a hand out to Rez to help him up. "Let's go lay in the entertainment room, the couches are huge in there." He said softly as he pulled his jeans up enough to stay on as he walked.
~~~
Rez definitely needed the help up. Between the steps and being on bottom for the first time in ages, he was definitely hurting a bit. He tugged his own jeans up and over his hips though he didn't bother with zipping or buttoning them just yet, instead keeping one hand on the waist as the other laced fingers with Riley's own to follow him into the entertainment room. The couch looked nice, inviting as hell in fact, and he collaped back on it with a satisfied groan before smiling at Riley and tugging on his hand, silently asking for him to lay with him.
~~~
Riley knew Rez was probably really feeling what they just did and he was concerned about that but it seemed like Rez was okay right now. He liked holding the other man's hand as they walked. He turned the lights on very low in the room, shutting the door behind them. Riley smiled at him as he flopped down. He nodded as he laid down next to him, pulling the blanket off the back of the couch and draping it over the two of them. "Mmm I like this part." Riley murmured as he cuddled against Rez.
~~~
Rez exhaled a sigh, slipping an arm around Riley and tugging him close. The addition of the blanket was nice. He could stand to stay like this for a while. "Me too," Rez said with a smile upon his lips. "I.. It's nice laying with you without feeling all... tense." He laughed, but then the laugh quieted and he frowned a little as he added, "Prolly can't stay long though." He didn't want to leave River alone with the kids for too terribly long.
~~~
Riley smiled and kissed his jaw and then chuckled softly. "Yeah it really is nice not to feel that fucking tension." He murmured and found himself nodding. "Yeah...I know, you've got kids to worry about now, daddy." He grinned at Rez and kissed him softly. "I know you have to be so happy about that." Riley murmured to him, rubbing a hand over his chest.
~~~
"Not that I minded all that much. It was kinda... I dunno... Tense." Rez exhaled a laugh. "Yeah.." Rez said, the words trailing off for a moment as he enjoyed that soft kiss. But after he had a chance to speak, to think about it, he replied, "Yes and no. I mean I... I love them . They're great but... This ain't how I really wanted it to happen and... I dunno." He exhaled a breath and then shrugged slightly. "They kinda ruined my life. Not that I hold that against them just... That's all still... fresh." He shifted a little to get comfortable, taking Riley's hand in his and holding them both on top of his chest. "And now Lily's livin' with Finn, apparently." He scoffed and then added, "I killed a guy for him cuz he was my best friend and he repays the favor by fuckin' my ex-boyfriend AND my ex-girlfriend."
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Riley looked at him with sad eyes for a moment and then nodded. "I know this isn't how you wanted them to come about, but they are here and once it isn't so fresh you won't regret one second of it because they become your life. Everything you are going to do will revolve around them." He said softly before listening to Rez and then looking up at him with wide eyes. "Are you serious? He...wow...guess he's not trying to be friends with you anymore." Riley was surprised by this information but he didn't say anything else about it.
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"I just.. wish I could've been there. When she was pregnant, when they were born. I wish... I wish that Chloe was really mine and not.. fuckin' Casey's." He couldn't tell River these things. Sure, he had expressed some frustration but... "I know you get it. I mean you went through the same thing too with Mara and I know that you know what it's like and you know that it's gonna get better but... Do you ever stop bein' angry about that?" He was worried that he would never really be able to forgive River, to forgive himself. He shook his head at the remark about Finn. "Guess not. I mean he acted like he did, and I almost... I almost forgave him but now..." His jaw tightened slightly as he added, "He's fuckin' dead to me. We're done. For real. And she's fuckin' stupid."
~~~
Riley looked at him for a moment and bit his lip. "I'm still angry with Charlie, and a lot of it is that I can't be mad at her because she was and is sick and Jane told her what to do and...I'm mad that she put Mara at risk instead of contacting me right away." He frowned and then sighed. "I resented Mara for awhile, her presence ended my relationship that I had had for a while and we were happy...but he...did not do well with children. He tried though, fuck he tried but he just couldn't do it in the end." Riley sighed and then looked at Rez. "But you...you will forgive River, you love her, she loves you and so on...besides maybe you can knock her up again one day and experience it all from start to finish." Riley stroked Rez's hair when he spoke about Finn and sighed. "I don't make excuses for them, I'd be the last person....but Lily...she's probably as upset as you are and maybe Finn is a safe place to be right now."
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"At least he was willing to try." And that was more than could be said for Lily. She just rolled over and played dead, or played whore for Finn apparently. "I don't resent the kids for it though. I mean not.. not really. Like.. I couldn't." He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "I don't even resent Trevor and Adam after all the shit they've caused but..." He shook his head softly. "I know that... maybe eventually... I mean it wasn't all her fault and... she said that too." He exhaled a soft laugh. "I mean if... if she can be made better without, you know, having to kill her first." It was still quite possible that becoming what he was wouldn't fix what was wrong with her, that the damage done was too much already. But they had to at least try it. And they would, soon. Next week in fact. "Finn is not safe. And she should know that. She should know that... he's the last person, or... well second to last person really, that she should be turning to right now." He scoffed. "I mean I'd almost rather her fuckin... run off with James and the real Fisher than to be with that asshole."
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"He was but he was a disaster, awkward, uncomfortable and potty training with him around was awful." Riley smiled as he thought about that man and then shook his head. "It's good you don't resent them, but it's not unusual to feel a bit of resentment for what's happened because of them being here." He rested his head on Rez's shoulder and then sighed. "Hopefully, becoming a were will fix her sickness...being a vamp will be a much harder adjustment for everyone." Riley had his doubts as well that becoming a were will save her life, if her kidneys were that destroyed...animals got diabetes and kidney disease too. Riley glanced at him when he talked about Finn and nodded. "I agree with you, he's not a good person for her to be around right now."
~~~
"Yeah..." Though Rez wasn't going to get his hopes up. Weres didn't heal the same way that a vampire could. A vampire didn't even need those body parts but a were definitely did. And whether or not it would help or hinder, he wasn't really sure. But either way, it was worth a shot. They had to try it, see if it worked out. And if it didn't... Well he was sure that Candi wouldn't mind taking care of it for him. That might be odd for most guys, a woman he'd fucked turning the woman he was going to be with afterward but... he didn't think it was all that strange. "I just... I hate... feeling how I feel. It's like.. fuckin' history repeating itself." Rez frowned. "You and I never got a real shot because of circumstances and me and her didn't either. It just... It ain't fair that shit keeps happenin'. Shit's been happenin' my whole life and.... I just wanna be happy. For once. Like.. really happy, ya know?"
~~~
Riley didn't say anything else about River, he knew what was going to happen with her was weighing heavily on his mind. Riley looked at him when he spoke again and then bit his lip. "Constant missed opportunities." He said softly and then smiled at him. "but Rez...this time you have your shot. She will get better one way or another and then you will have your shot. Make the effort, ignore the distractions. You two can create a relationship that works, if you still need a guy in your life to be happy find one...just don't let another opportunity get away especially when she will never be out of your life once she's saved."
~~~
"I don't wanna find one," Rez said softly. Of course he wouldn't go into further detail about what that meant. Riley would know though. After what had just happened, after everything that had been said, there was no way he couldn't know. But some things were better left unsaid. Especially when they had already had that conversation and he already knew that that would never work. That thought was kind of depressing.
~~~
Riley knew what he meant and it made him sad too. He loved Rez so much but...he didn't want to share forever and he would have never made him chose between his family and Riley. He leaned in and kissed him softly. "I know babe...I don't want you to either." He said softly as he stroked Rez's hair.
~~~
"Yeah, well... since when has what either of us want had any impact on what is?" He didn't actually mean it as a question. It was more like a statement. "But I'm just... I'm so fuckin' sick of it." Rez added, shifting on the couch to look at him. "I just.. want what I want and I don't wanna compromise anymore. I don't wanna lose anymore, Riley." He scoffed and added, "I've fuckin' had enough."
~~~
Riley nodded as Rez spoke and chewed on his bottom lip. "I know babe...I understand." He said softly as he tucks the unruly hair behind Rez's ear. "You deserve to be happy babe, you deserve so much." He said softly and pulled the blanket tight around them. "You will get good things Rez, I know you will."
~~~
Rez shook his head, falling silent for a moment before he exhaled a breath and said, "You know what? Just forget about it. It's just... Not gonna happen." He was getting more and more agitated, meanwhile pushing the cover off of him and moving to climb out from behind Riley on the couch. "Fuckin'... Lily and Finn are gonna do what they want and Adam is going to just keep on hating me and you're gonna meet some great guy and fall head over heels and Trevor... well he's not really doin' anything but I'm sure somethin' will come up to fuck all that up too because that's how it goes. That's how it always goes." He was on the verge of tears now as he fumbled to get his clothes back on right, everything buttoned and zipped. "And I'm either gonna fix River or I'm gonna fail her. I dunno which. But either way, my fuckin' life is decided for me now. It's fuckin' written. And I don't even get a say in it. Not at all. And I never have so I should fuckin' be used to it by now."
~~~
Riley looked at him and sat up so he was out of Rez's way but held onto him regardless. "Hey hey...your life isn't decided...you have kids so that won't change but nothing else is set in stone babe...Rez baby...this isnt like you...talk to me." He said, his heart cracking a little when he saw the tears sparkling in Rez's eyes. Riley hated seeing him like this, he had seen it before but not for a very long time.
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"I don't wanna talk!" Rez's temper was starting to get the better of him. And he hated it. This wasn't Riley's fault. But he was here and everything felt like it was crashing down around him and... fuck. He could understand right now why Riley wanted to run away. "What good is talking going to do? Huh? It's never done any good before. Not ever. And it never will. This is just... it." He exhaled a breath, giving a small shrug of his shoulders. "This is it. And it isn't what I wanted but it's what I got and..." He scoffed, shaking his head. "I don't have a fuckin' ring that I can put on my finger just to get away from it. I got a best friend who stabs me in the back and a woman that I wanna be pissed off at but can't really because she's too sick for me to even think about it and a fuckin' nephew that won't even speak to me and a five year old son that I have to try to.. to teach how to deal with what he is even though I ain't even come to terms with the shit my own self and a baby in diapers and..." He moved a hand up to wipe a stray tear from his cheek. "Two people that I can't fall out of love with no matter how hard I try even though it's fuckin'... hopeless."
~~~
Riley barely reacted to Rez's explosion, he had seen his temper before...just it had been awhile since he had seen it. He bit his lip and let the other man get it all out, he sat quietly and just listened to him. "Talking is what I do, so it's my first reaction." Riley chewed on his lip and then stood up, making sure he his jeans were done up. He let the shot about the ring go and then reached out for Rez. "Babe..." He had no idea what the hell to do here. Riley wanted to fix it, fix everything for him...but obviously he couldn't, his heart was hurting for this man he loved. "You have a lot to deal with I know...I don't blame you for losing it a bit, And if I could give you an escape I would give you one this second. I would do anything I could for you. But like you tell me your family needs you. You just have to do the best you can."
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"Yeah, well, you can't." Rez didn't mean to come across sounding so angry at him, but in a lot of ways, he was. He was angry. He was angry at Lily for not loving him enough to fucking suck things up and deal with it. He was angry at River for not telling him about his kids. He was angry at Finn for being a shitty friend. He was angry at Adam for not appreciating the things that he tried to do for him. And he was angry at Riley for wanting more because if he didn't, then everything would okay. Everything would be fine. But it wasn't and he wasn't sure if it ever would be. "I gotta go," he said, his tone less angry now and more defeated as he turned to leave.
~~~
Riley blinked at him and dropped his hand, he felt that pulling Rez to him right now was a bad idea. "No I can't, I never can." Riley turned and started to fold the blanket back up and put it on the back of the couch. There was nothing he could say, Rez needed to be upset and he wasn't interested in being calmed down. Riley did want more, he wanted to be in love, have a family, a relationship...not sleep with the man he loved on tuesday and letting the woman in his man's life sleep with Rez on wednesday. Riley grabbed Rez's wrist when he heard him say he was leaving and pulled him back. "I don't want you to leave like this...I love you so much." He swallowed hard and bit his lip. "I want to give you what you want so much."
~~~
Rez exhaled a breath when Riley grabbed him, reluctant to allow himself to be pulled back to him but he didn't really struggle too much. "We don't always get what we want, Riley. Didn't we establish that already?" He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "You wouldn't be happy. I wouldn't be happy if you weren't happy. And she wouldn't be happy if I wasn't happy so..." He sighed. "We're just fucked. May as well accept it and just... move on. What other choice do we have?"
~~~
"No we don't." He said as he let go and then chewed on his lip. "I would be happy for awhile." Riley said softly as he shoved his hands in his pockets. Just once it would have been nice for things to have worked out the way Riley wanted them to...just once. "I don't know, play the cards we are given I guess." He said softly as he headed for the door
~~~
"Maybe," Rez said softly, though he wasn't so sure how much he believed that. Riley was a needy person. He needed to be the only person in someone's life and Rez needed to let him go so that he could do that but he didn't WANT to let him go. He just... he wanted to have his cake and eat it too because what was the point in having cake if you didn't get to enjoy it. He never really understood that expression. "Wish we could be dealt a different hand," he remarked somewhat offhandedly and then exhaled a breath. "Just... think about it? I know.. I know it probably won't do any good and it won't change anything because, I mean... we already know that but just... just think about it." He paused and then added, "I really do gotta go. I wanna stay but... I gotta go. I can't... know that she'd be okay to handle them on her own if somethin' happened."
~~~
Riley was a needy person, he hated it but it was true. He thought he could be in a threeway relationship for awhile but maybe he couldn't, maybe he could. He had no idea. riley looked at Rez when he asked him to think about it and nodded. "Yeah I will." He said with a smile and then nodded. "yeah of course you do, you shouldn't leave her alone too long anyways." Riley walked with Rez to the front door, he was obviously happy they had sex...but it brought so much emotion with it. Memories were still going through Riley's mind...maybe their relationship was always built on sex, but fuck it was so good.
~~~
It did bring a lot with it. A lot that was unresolved, a lot of things that had been buried and probably should have stayed that way all things considered. But what had happened had happened and there was no taking it back now. Once they made it to the door, Rez leaned in to kiss Riley, a hand hooking behind his neck, lightly stroking at his scalp. He let it linger for a long moment before he pulled away and then smiled. "I love you," he said in a soft voice, then gave him another soft kiss before pulling away completely. "Later."
~~~
Riley would have agreed with Rez's thoughts, but he wouldn't have changed what happened. Riley kissed him back, loving the feel of his hand on his scalp. This moment was so much more than the others. "I love you too." He murmured, kissing him and then letting him go. "Later." Riley said softly as he watched Rez go.