~~~ Being with Rez was intense, all her emotions went spinning inside her but it wasn't bad it was good. She trusted him more than anyone else, she would tell him anything and not worry about his reaction. Maybe he'd laugh, or hate it but it wouldn't change his opinion of her and she loved him for that and everything else. But now it was almost like she could feel that Rez was realizing things about her. River was sure he was never in love with her but he loved her and right now it felt a little different than that...which also was changing the way she was looking at her life. River didn't want to give in, or give up anymore. She wanted the life that was being held out in front of her. She kissed him back, holding onto him just as tight. ~~~ Somewhere along the lines, the entire feeling of this had changed. It had started out light and fun and then it had turned kinda carnal when he was going down on her, like a need that had to be sated, and now... now it wasn't really either of those things. Sure, it felt good, and it was pretty likely that they would both get off like this but.. things were just more intense now and passionate in a way that he was pretty damn sure they never had been before.
He was trembling when he broke the kiss finally, needing to breathe, his forehead pressed against her own, panting softly against her lips. "You're beautiful," he whispered, bright eyes peering into her own, deep, rich ones. "I'm sorry I never.. appreciated you like I should have." His words were coming out slightly gruff and breathy due in large part to the building tension that being inside of her was generating. "I was an asshole and you deserve better. You've always deserved better." A shudder ran down the base of his spine, taking his breath for a moment as he exhaled a groan.
"I'm never... never gonna do that again," he concluded, though there was more that he could say, that he wanted to say. Like he wanted to tell her about everything he had done, everything that he'd been through, everything that had happened to him, how it had changed him, how it had broken him down, and how he knew that things would be better now that she was here. But he couldn't vocalize any of that right now because, well, the pleasure of the physical realm was outweighing his ability to verbalize things. ~~~ There was more going on between them than just sex this time around, River had never felt this kind of intensity with him before. Her eyes were closed for a moment and then he told her she was beautiful, so River opened her eyes and stared into his amazing blue eyes. But what he was saying was...unexpected. "Rez I...I don't even know what to say to that. You were a kid, a fucked up kid...you can't be angry with yourself for that." River's voice was breathy, it was hard for her to catch her breath with him buried inside her. "Neither of us were perfect back then." She murmured.
Everything he wanted to say to her, and she wanted to say to him could come later, if things worked out well, they would have plenty of time for it. "I know you're different now, and I'm glad because I need you, this you." She said before kissing him again and moving her hips slightly so he would move inside her...because honestly a girl can only hold out for so long.