Beth had dressed up for this because she wanted Berta to see her like she was supposed to be, to see her how Beth felt she really was. Maybe it would be less devastating and easier to accept if Berta could only see Beth as a girl. Maybe that would make things okay. She wasn't sure it would work, but she had to hope for something.
With a forced smile and a nod, Beth stepped past Berta into the room, and took a seat on the edge of her bed. She was so nervous that she was certain Berta could feel it exuding off her. Beth still couldn't control her emotions well enough, and she really hoped that she wouldn't make Berta sick from it. That made her even more nervous.
"So um... I w-wanted to um... I have to tell you something. Something really big."