"He's still with me and I miss him," Will responded with a small sigh. "And it's not - the marriage that makes me feel unlike myself. It's the new me." It wasn't an argument against Godric's points because he knew that the vampire would have an argument for Will's argument. It was just the way it went. "Fisher encouraged me to break out of my emotionless shell. And I did. And that lead me to James, and I never expected to fall for him. I hated him. It just - happened. I guess it happened at the wrong time. I was still trying to adapt to feeling things, I still am. I've never felt this before. I've never really... even divulged this much to anyone at all."
And he was clearly uncomfortable with doing so but tough shit. He needed to trust someone to speak to about this sort of thing. Now was as good a time as any, and Ric was good as anyone to hear him out. "I spent a century as this horrible, disgusting person. And I'm still adapting at being a normal human being. I've not felt like myself for months, because, thankfully, the person I was is not the person I want to be any more. But I can't seem to... get out of it completely. And I WANT to."