Ada (onechordsong) wrote in tiberiusswann, @ 2010-06-18 15:07:00 |
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Entry tags: | ada, kim |
Wednesday, June 4
Who: Ada and Kim
Where: Student lounge
What: Lost track of time
When: 10:45 p.m.
Rating/Status: TBD/Incomplete
Ada had her Lycan Lore book open in front of her for some last-minute cramming, but there wasn't a lot of focus going on. She hadn't even stopped to consider that the reason the lounge had emptied of students was because curfew had come almost an hour ago. Things were strained between she and her fiance, and it seemed to have come on so suddenly. Looking back, though, there had been signs. It wasn't a case of wrongdoing or deliberate sabotage from what she could tell, but more of a slow unraveling that could be traced back to distance. They had thought they could handle it. After all, both of them were on the road regularly, they had never been together in the flesh for much longer than a couple of months at a run, and sometimes went weeks without a face-to-face meeting when both of them were on tour, but she had been at TJS for six weeks now, and the strain was evident in their short and somewhat rushed phone conversations. There was plenty to say, both of their lives were in a cycle of change – Jace chasing down the bright lights and fame in a serious manner for the first time in his life, Ada trying to reconcile her lycanthropy with her future plans – but their talks were nonetheless halting and awkward.
She wanted it to work. There was no situation in which she could conceive not loving him, not after pouring so much of herself into this relationship. She had let her guard down with him more than she ever had with anyone else, and as a result was more vulnerable than in relationships past. When her string of failed romances had fallen apart, it had hurt but the hurt had been manageable. Her investment in this relationship was so extensive that she feared watching it crumble would bankrupt her emotionally.
But she couldn't think about that, certainly couldn't talk to him about it. Not when their only means of contact were cell phones and skype. He would be in New York next week and so would she. Both of them were playing shows the night they arrived, but they were going to meet up afterward and spend the rest of the weekend together. And they were going to have to talk.
Ada flipped her ipod to one of Jace's songs and smiled a bit hearing his voice. She knew he wanted to go for the big time, and there was no way she would begrudge him that. She just hoped there would still be a place for her now that he was finally making it.
She closed her eyes for a moment, trying to clear her head of the uncertainty, and looked back down at the words on the page in her textbook. It was the same page she'd been staring at fruitlessly for the past half hour, but she had to use that willpower she knew she had to get through this final chapter so she could go back to her room and try to sleep. Sitting around worrying over something she could do nothing about wasn't going to help anything, certainly not her test scores.