"I don't want to see my friends yet. Half of myself is disgusted at them for turning up, the other half of me proud. The same applies to myself," She smiled slightly. "One of them... I told them over and over again to think and that it wasn't a romantic notion and I still don't think they paid me any heed. I don't want to say 'I told you so' but I do at the same time. Does that make any sense?"
She bit her lip. "Sorry. I know that- Merlin, I know better than that. I really do apologize," she said, putting her hand to her head. She almost wanted to cry and say that it wasn't fair but nothing ever had been fair. It's why wars started in the first place.
"I'm trying. Trust me, I'm not being a sitting duck and waiting for somebody to make my mind up for me," she replied. "It's just that this is very weird and without my father here, I have nobody who can help. That's why I came to you to make sense of this."