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peter pettigrew picked a peck of powerful pals (skittering) wrote in thequest,
@ 2019-06-20 12:15:00

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!: text, c: peter pettigrew, c: remus lupin

27 June: the darkness in me

[Text: Peter and Remus]

Hope you are feeling better.

I'm sorry for showing up the other night since you didn't want me there.

I didn't really know how to NOT be there.

That doesn't make any sense.

Remus I don't want things to be like this.

But I don't know how to fix them.

Nothing seems easy right now for any of us.

It feels a hell of a lot easier to save you lot from whatever bullshit is coming my way than to stay close.

Selfishly.

I don't want to be so damned selfish. I want something better for you than the pile of shit that I am.

But I'm a coward. I'm too scared to let this go. I fucking suck at being alone.

I'm just sorry.

	skittering 2019-06-21 02:11 am UTC (link)
	There's a lot of shit out there that is worse than being a werewolf, Moony. Especially when he's a fucking decent human being. Yes, a lot of people hate you for what you are. But there's still a fuck ton of people who love you for WHO you are (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fallingshort 2019-06-21 02:40 am UTC (link)
	That's because you know me. Like I know you. You're a decent human being, Peter. Stop being a coward. Don't run. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skittering 2019-06-21 02:46 am UTC (link)
	And if you found out that I wasn't a decent human being? And you hate me for it. Wouldn't you regret that I stuck around? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Unsent fallingshort 2019-06-21 02:57 am UTC (link)
	I don't want to play this game anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	(hours later) fallingshort 2019-06-21 02:58 am UTC (link)
	I'd hate you for not trying For not letting us help (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unsent fallingshort 2019-06-21 02:59 am UTC (link)
	And honestly? Not so keen on you right now (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skittering 2019-06-21 03:13 am UTC (link)
	I dunno what there is you can do, Remus. But fine. Bellatrix gave me an encore of her previous show. Rather short lived this go, but just as unpleasant. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unsent fallingshort 2019-06-21 11:14 pm UTC (link)
	~~And you didn't lead with that?~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Unsent fallingshort 2019-06-21 11:14 pm UTC (link)
	~~what the absolu~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	fallingshort 2019-06-21 11:15 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. ... ... ... Was this before or after Sirius? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	skittering 2019-06-21 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	You mean when she cursed him? It was before. I think she used me to confirm her suspicions about us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fallingshort 2019-06-21 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	.... .... You better answer your phone. NOW (Reply to this) (Parent)