Re: Private to Dally/Taj
I know I could walk into a big pile of shit and come out of this FUBAR, but I'm going to try and talk with London. Maybe- just maybe- I can figure something out. I know there can be some in-between kinds but right now? I'm just trying to see every angle of this story. I don't want to go charging in there all oorah for the wrong side.
You still haven't read the book, have you? Haha!
Do I love her? I would be lying to you if I tried to claim I didn't. You know, I was keeping myself away from her thinking somehow it might be better for me but I just...I felt like I was drowning in my own darkness. I don't know what it is or why because she's human, so it makes no sense. I can't get her out of my system. I can't. And there's very few things that I would go to war for but I would lay down my life for her, Taj. She is so, so beautiful to me.
Maybe I've just gone bat shit crazy and this is what Marines like me do before they snap and murder everyone, but yes, I love her. Do I love her in the way I loved and still love Zach? Probably not. He'll always be the one I could never have or touch and it will always make me hurt. But she makes that wound not so deep, you know? I can see myself spending some years with her until she can't stand me anymore. And who knows? Maybe she will love me as much as she says until the fire goes out. But for now, I'm happy. I'm happy with her and the way she loves me, the way she makes me feel. I may not get to spend immortality with her by the end of this all, but I want to spend the here and now with her.