Who Dally and Taj What Talk of Casper and Andy and bit of K too - How Taj bears more than he believes the others realize and how Dally doesn't feel connected to the other brothers Type Aim Chat where Dally calls out Taj on his leaving with no notice When While Taj is in Tennessee Warnings Language and Taj being overly emotional compared to his usual self Status Complete
(1:42:30 PM) Darrius Eastwood: So what's this shit of you up and leaving, boyo? (1:44:40 PM) tajmuhull: Uh road trip (1:44:49 PM) tajmuhull: with Casper (1:44:53 PM) tajmuhull: so? (1:44:57 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Uh huh. (1:45:18 PM) tajmuhull: what's the big deal. (1:45:27 PM) Darrius Eastwood: You couldn't mention this prior because...? (1:46:08 PM) tajmuhull: so I finally do something for me? for once. just fucking once. And because we up and made it up the moment I texted you. Thought it and just did it (1:46:16 PM) tajmuhull: I"m in Tennessee now (1:46:24 PM) Darrius Eastwood: The big deal, Tata, is that I'm fucking protective of your ass. (1:46:58 PM) tajmuhull: yeah, well... safer out here anyway, not that probation is going to like me gone so much. heh. (1:47:09 PM) tajmuhull: but at least he's not going to try and Kill Andy out here (1:47:23 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Damn. Ain't even met this kid and he's pulling shit. (1:47:34 PM) tajmuhull: He's adorable (1:47:52 PM) tajmuhull: and it's not like he meant to try to kill Andy (1:47:57 PM) tajmuhull: he can't help it (1:48:09 PM) tajmuhull: He can't help he was born a werewolf (1:48:14 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Well, duh. Of course he can't. (1:48:20 PM) Darrius Eastwood: If he could? (1:48:30 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I wouldn't of let him go. (1:48:37 PM) tajmuhull: that doesn't mean he still doesn't want him dead tho I guess (1:48:53 PM) tajmuhull: which brings me to this too. I said the same thing to K (1:49:01 PM) tajmuhull: when it's full moon time (1:49:06 PM) tajmuhull: DO NOT let Andy near my house (1:49:11 PM) tajmuhull: keep him distracted (1:49:19 PM) tajmuhull: at your place or whatever (1:49:32 PM) tajmuhull: the wolf keeps coming back here (1:49:44 PM) tajmuhull: I think it claimed me (1:49:52 PM) tajmuhull: or something like that (1:50:08 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I'm not his baby sitter. But I can keep an eye on him. (1:50:58 PM) tajmuhull: um. hello. if your so protective and you know he's out to kill Andy and CAN, he has every ability to do so, you'd take that a little more serious (1:51:35 PM) tajmuhull: maybe you didn't see how close to death Andy came last time. If I hadn't been there to intervene. We might be minus one brother (1:51:39 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Well, your friend wolf or not better stop fucking around and screw his head on straight Rickity fuckin tick. I'm trying to keep causalities low here on both counts. (1:52:41 PM) tajmuhull: that's the whole point. He can't keep his head on straight during the full moon bro-yo. (1:53:21 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I will say this. Andy has fucked himself bad. I can smell on him, see it. (1:53:51 PM) tajmuhull: what do you mean (1:54:17 PM) Darrius Eastwood: But I ain't letting him drop over or get himself into some dark place. (1:54:37 PM) tajmuhull: Andy is in a dark place. Too late for that one. (1:54:46 PM) tajmuhull: I've tried for years to pull him out (1:54:52 PM) tajmuhull: I'm just not good enough (1:55:12 PM) tajmuhull: I've failed (1:55:17 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Let me handle him now. (1:55:55 PM) tajmuhull: I guess. (1:56:07 PM) tajmuhull: handle him? I don't like the sound of that (1:56:22 PM) tajmuhull: like he's a job (1:56:54 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Everythings a job to me, Ta. Way I think. (1:57:04 PM) tajmuhull: yeah (1:57:14 PM) tajmuhull: military thing I guess (1:57:22 PM) tajmuhull: sounds cold tho (1:57:29 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Dragon thing too. (1:57:34 PM) tajmuhull: ah (1:58:01 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I'm not trying to be cold. I love him. (1:58:13 PM) tajmuhull: So do I. You have no idea (1:58:39 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Good. (1:59:49 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I worry. About all of us. (1:59:59 PM) tajmuhull: yeah (2:00:01 PM) tajmuhull: I know (2:00:21 PM) tajmuhull: I slept with wolves (2:00:30 PM) tajmuhull: wild ones (2:01:03 PM) Darrius Eastwood: You are curious. (2:01:40 PM) Darrius Eastwood: By the way, I think I'm gonna...mm...let Andy see my dragon form. (2:01:47 PM) tajmuhull: it was cool. Dally. I've barely been out of town man. a couple hours this way and that. Seeing all this world out here is amazing (2:01:59 PM) tajmuhull: yeah oK? (2:02:20 PM) tajmuhull: I don't know what the big deal with you and your form has been anyway (2:02:26 PM) tajmuhull: all the rest of us do it (2:02:41 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I don't like it. (2:02:50 PM) tajmuhull: well Andy not so much - he hates his other form, but that's different. and why? (2:03:07 PM) tajmuhull: he's got some hangup about being pure (2:03:18 PM) tajmuhull: like a unicorn should be. It's all in his head (2:03:24 PM) tajmuhull: he's a fucking unicorn (2:03:40 PM) tajmuhull: He should be proud of that (2:03:47 PM) tajmuhull: you people drive me nuts (2:03:57 PM) tajmuhull: we're not humans (2:04:14 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I know. I just...I've never seen another dragon. I like this body. I made this body. (2:04:43 PM) tajmuhull: yeah well, you've seen yourself. and if you really want to see another you should have just asked. (2:04:53 PM) tajmuhull: you know I can see what everyone is (2:04:58 PM) tajmuhull: I'll point them out (2:05:10 PM) tajmuhull: feel free to be a stalker and follow them around (2:05:20 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I'm...hesitant. (2:07:04 PM) Darrius Eastwood: What if they aren't what I expect? (2:07:28 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Taj, I'm big. You know that. (2:07:59 PM) Darrius Eastwood: And I just...I'd like to connect sometime. (2:09:19 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I love all of you, but I'm really apart from you. (2:10:01 PM) tajmuhull: yeah. I understand. Like I've ever seen a sphinx? NO. I'm just like you, only sometimes I think it's worse for me, because I have gifts I can't control. Maybe I could be closer to being the omniscient oracle I'm meant to be if I had any training or rearing at all (2:10:03 PM) tajmuhull: but no (2:10:08 PM) tajmuhull: you think you're different (2:10:12 PM) tajmuhull: you're not (2:10:16 PM) tajmuhull: that's all in your head (2:10:30 PM) tajmuhull: and here I am, still a little twit with uncontroled powers (2:10:43 PM) tajmuhull: and have NO clue what I'm doing (2:11:00 PM) tajmuhull: you just refuse to connect fully (2:11:02 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Maybe we can help each.other, Ta. (2:11:03 PM) tajmuhull: wIth me (2:11:07 PM) tajmuhull: maybe (2:11:30 PM) Darrius Eastwood: How can I fully.connect.to you? (2:11:41 PM) tajmuhull: stop being so distant? (2:12:04 PM) tajmuhull: and acting like you're different or have feelings that the rest us couldn't possibly understand (2:12:05 PM) Darrius Eastwood: That's the thing. I don't know how. (2:12:13 PM) tajmuhull: me especially (2:12:24 PM) tajmuhull: I've known you since we were like babies (2:12:27 PM) tajmuhull: and still (2:12:32 PM) tajmuhull: you think I dont get you (2:12:55 PM) tajmuhull: well guess what. I'll tell you what I dont usually tell Andy (2:14:22 PM) tajmuhull: and that's that I see all of you. You're pasts, sometimes your futures. it's not like you dont know I have visions, but all the things you guys internalize so deep. what do you think I feel when Andy tells me he has "somewhere to go, something to do" and purposefully walks out my safe house to go get his ass abused by a pervert who leaves bruises all over him (2:14:24 PM) tajmuhull: and YOU (2:14:37 PM) tajmuhull: you think I haven't seen some of what you witnessed overseas? (2:14:44 PM) tajmuhull: I know all of you (2:14:59 PM) tajmuhull: even the parts you hide from me (2:15:06 PM) tajmuhull: do you know how heavy that is? (2:15:08 PM) tajmuhull: for me? (2:15:26 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I'm sorry,.Taj. (2:15:54 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I love you, little brother. (2:17:19 PM) tajmuhull: I love you too Dally. I'm sorry. I'm just... so... it's really getting to me. This Andy thing. I've tried to be everything for him. And nothing changes him. I tell myself I just have to be patient. Time keeps ticking. How did I expect to make it for centuries waiting if I have crumbled in just a few short years (2:17:24 PM) tajmuhull: I'm fucking weak (2:17:32 PM) tajmuhull: and feel no good for any of you (2:17:42 PM) tajmuhull: K thinks I'm crazy (2:17:46 PM) tajmuhull: I know it (2:17:58 PM) tajmuhull: as much as he loves me. I know he does (2:18:21 PM) tajmuhull: And here I am, I just... I went bizerk. I broke down and just up and left with Casper (2:18:27 PM) Darrius Eastwood: You're not. I love you. (2:18:34 PM) tajmuhull: I just wanted to feel something good for fucking once (2:18:42 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Just be safe. (2:18:51 PM) tajmuhull: and not be rejected. And I love you so damn much. (2:18:59 PM) tajmuhull: I'm trying. (2:19:37 PM) tajmuhull: and through all of this, to hear you say... I don't know you. you're different. sometimes I think you and me are the most the same (2:20:25 PM) tajmuhull: we're all screwed (2:20:33 PM) tajmuhull: we just have to do what we can (2:20:37 PM) tajmuhull: to stick together (2:20:40 PM) tajmuhull: that's all I know (2:20:45 PM) tajmuhull: we're all we've got (2:33:27 PM) Darrius Eastwood: I know. We jusy have to make it work. (2:33:42 PM) tajmuhull: I'm sorry I just went off the handle (2:33:52 PM) tajmuhull: I've been idk... stressed out (2:34:11 PM) tajmuhull: from holding all this shit in for so long myself (2:34:34 PM) Darrius Eastwood: It's okay. When you get back, I want to head out to the lake. (2:35:05 PM) tajmuhull: cool. we should. (2:35:10 PM) tajmuhull: I like going there (3:00:18 PM) Darrius Eastwood: Just none of your moaning this time. Haha! (3:35:10 PM) tajmuhull: Then don't give me something to prove. LOLOLOL!!!