Who: Taj and Andy What: Andy comes home Where: Taj's House When: After this Warnings: Language? Mentions of torture and dub-con?
A combination of reluctance, deep thought, indecision and physical weakness meant that it was almost dark by the time Andy made it to Taj's house. He wanted to go in and see his brother again after days spent thinking he'd never get the chance to, but time away had eroded that and replaced it with a crushing doubt and a kind of fear. Not of Taj, never, but of what he might see when he knocked on the door and Taj saw him there after weeks of disappearance. He knew Taj worried and now he was going to have to face up to what he'd done. That and he was still thinking over Adrian's beahviour, if he could ever give the other man what he seemed to want, something more than just a fuck. He wanted a cuddle from Kareem who always seemed to know what to do, and he'd been considering walking there until he realised his body wouldn't make it.
He'd sat down on the kerb for a rest at that point. He eventually decided he was being stupid, paranoid and overthinking things as usual. He knew there was only once place he needed to be and he got up and began making his way to Taj's again, stopping minutes away to wonder suddenly what he was supposed to tell him about where he'd been. More to the point, how he was supposed to tell him when he couldn't even face the facts of where he'd been himself.
He'd still decided it didn't matter - he needed to see his brother.
He made it to the door, hands buried in the cuffs of Adrian's borrowed shirt, and knocked.