I'm writing you this because I don't know what's going on but I think that if I tried to tell you this face to face something would stop me.
I think something happened to us to make us do this. It doesn't feel right, when I think about it (not you, you always feel right. something else)
I can't remember why I thought I'd be good for you anymore. I think I've blocked out something really bad that happened recently; something keeps snagging on my mind and making me feel anxious and just, I find myself shaking. I don't know what happened, but I'm beginning to have a bad feeling.
It goes away when I'm near you, but not in the good way that you usually have. It feels like something interfering. I don't know, maybe I'm being paranoid. I don't know. I don't know and that's what's bugging me. Why don't I have a job anymore? What happened to me?