Who Stacey and Jackie Type Aim What Brother/Sister bonding - talk of Jean and Atlas and the wrongs of God favoring humans over other species Warnings None Status Complete
(3:35:02 AM) aangelarcher: Jackity (3:39:12 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Oh hi Stacey. (3:43:09 AM) aangelarcher: hi Jackie. We haven't talked a while (3:43:27 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Mhm! Have you been busy? (3:44:55 AM) aangelarcher: Well yes I have, but I realized you must really be keeping busy because I've been posting Jean revenge posts for the last couple weeks and a private and you've not answered that even responded to my jean taunting. so either you're having the time of your life orrrrr?. (3:44:59 AM) aangelarcher: are you ok? (3:46:31 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Oh I saw a few of those! Funny, sissy. But I haven't been hanging around on the computer a whole lot. I've been with Atlas and we have a whole circus going on around us and there's a lot to see and think about. (3:46:58 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: You never did get to meet him, did you? (3:47:08 AM) aangelarcher: No. I didn't (3:47:28 AM) aangelarcher: I should still smack you if I was the smacking type that is (3:47:32 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Ohhh that's a shame. I wanted everyone to meet. (3:47:32 AM) aangelarcher: gr (3:47:46 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Why do you want to smack me?? (3:48:40 AM) aangelarcher: for actually seeing the posts and not answering, I was envisioning you having such a good time you just missed them. but actually I did that to Jean, now I feel guilty and weird and am scared to talk to him (3:48:48 AM) aangelarcher: but I'd love to meet him (3:50:20 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I'm sure it's okay. Maybe it's not the best time for jokes. It seems like Jean's friends are taking up a lot of his energy and that situation is really difficult...I'm sorry I didn't pay more attention the other day. (3:51:16 AM) aangelarcher: No. It's always the time for jokes. humor is good medicine. Jean deserves revenge. He put mentos in my soda while I was with clients (3:51:30 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Haa! I love that one. (3:51:56 AM) aangelarcher: Yeah, but I didn't get the job (3:52:08 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Oh... sorry. (3:52:44 AM) aangelarcher: not a big deal. it's just one job. But, it was pretty funny seeing their faces. Just don't tell Jean I said that (3:53:09 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Okay, I won't. :3 I bet it was pretty great with soda everywhere. (3:54:05 AM) aangelarcher: Yeah, it was. but now I need to figure out how to talk to him again after I smacked him. I've never been that angry before. not over the soda (3:54:31 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Um, well... just talk to him. He's not that bad about stuff. (3:55:03 AM) aangelarcher: for going somewhere and leaving me with the people he gards. I could have had better warning that his wards are .... (3:55:13 AM) aangelarcher: um (3:55:16 AM) aangelarcher: so mean (3:55:34 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: He left you with them? Where did he go?? (3:55:54 AM) aangelarcher: oh. I think he was mad at you (3:56:11 AM) aangelarcher: or hurt anyway (3:56:11 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Oh yeah. :( I was upset with daddy and I was mean to him. (3:56:16 AM) aangelarcher: not mad (3:56:19 AM) aangelarcher: he seemed hurt (3:56:30 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Well more like. I didn't really want to talk right then. (3:56:46 AM) aangelarcher: I don't know what was going on Jackie, but ... (3:56:48 AM) aangelarcher: well... (3:56:55 AM) aangelarcher: can you just tell me what was going on (3:58:10 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Um well... I guess Atlas said some things I didn't mean for him to say. He's like that. He will say whatever is on his mind. usually I really like that about him but it doesn't go over very well with papa and daddy. Hahh. So daddy started asking me a lot of questions and I didn't really know what to say. (3:58:58 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Things like, he wanted to know if I was happy and okay with being a saint and I got kind of mad and stressed out because at the very same time I had to tell Atlas that one of his very best friends is related to demons and he was upset. (3:59:45 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: And everything is just very hard. Stacey, there are a lot of demons here. Way more than I can fend off. The only thing I can do is bolster up Atlas so that he doesn't let them in. (4:01:32 AM) aangelarcher: But, Jackie? That is what you're supposed to do (4:01:40 AM) aangelarcher: It's not your job to fight them (4:01:47 AM) aangelarcher: It's your job to guide people (4:01:58 AM) aangelarcher: They do their own fighting (4:02:59 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Not Atlas. He's mortal. and... he's special. I can't let anything happen to him. but one of them already threatened to kill him once, and if they all decided to carry through we'd be in a pretty bad place. (4:05:08 AM) aangelarcher: So are all the humans we guide Jackie. Everyone's mortal we help. (4:05:20 AM) aangelarcher: that's the point of it all I think (4:05:54 AM) aangelarcher: We have to help the minds of those that have limited time to grow stronger with the time they're given (4:06:39 AM) aangelarcher: and what kind of special are we talking here Jackie ? (4:08:34 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: It's just different. I don't have room to let anything happen here. (4:08:36 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: because (4:09:00 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I'm starting to be in love with him. I told him that night. He seemed happy. (4:10:01 AM) aangelarcher: oh jackie. (4:10:05 AM) aangelarcher: really? (4:11:13 AM) aangelarcher: That's the most romantic thing I've heard since the last time I Daddy and Papa told their story around the fireplace. You're really in love with who you're taking care of? (4:13:11 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Yes. But I don't think it's like Daddy and Papa, Stacey... you know, when they talk about what a hero Papa was saving Daddy from himself and everything. I still have to protect Atlas from the things that want to hurt him, but I'm not so sure I need to drag him into any frame of mind. I like him as he is. (4:16:52 AM) aangelarcher: Oh Jackie. You shouldn't compare it like that. (4:17:08 AM) aangelarcher: It's not romantic because Papa changed his mind (4:17:29 AM) aangelarcher: It's romantic because Papa cared to protect him (4:18:05 AM) aangelarcher: I think we just hear the same story and still hear two different ones (4:44:19 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I didn't say that didn't make it romantic or anything. Just... that I don't want Atlas to be different. He shows me things. Like, maybe it sounds kind of corny... but he's not human, and learning the heart of something not human has been really gratifying. I don't want him to turn human and join the ranks, and he doesn't want it either. He's too special. There really isn't anything else like him. He doesn't even know if there are any more of his species around, and neither do I. his situation is just... it's different, it's not like dealing with a human at all. His thoughts are different, his feelings are different, his experience is different. (4:48:11 AM) aangelarcher: oh. I'm not really understanding why you think you're supposed to turn him human (4:48:28 AM) aangelarcher: that's the impression that gives (4:51:04 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: It's hard to explain... like.. there's a one size fits all answer sometimes, and it's all contained in the bible, but the bible was written for humans. What if the answers are different for those that aren't human? How can I even begin to talk about stuff like morals for non-humans, and things like Genesis, where it says that humans should rule over every other living thing? (4:51:07 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
28 God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule overthe fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground. ” (4:51:51 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: The humans were cruel to him sometimes... do you know who he is? (4:51:56 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I would never ask him to accept this. (5:03:32 AM) aangelarcher: I heard a little of who he was from Daddy. (5:03:38 AM) aangelarcher: but Jackie (5:03:52 AM) aangelarcher: Can I say something that I really hope doesn't make me sound bad (5:04:01 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Yeah. Go ahead. (5:04:58 AM) aangelarcher: You ever seen Pirates of caribean and they say the code is more like guidelines? I'm not sure I depend on that Bible to guide people I help (5:05:21 AM) aangelarcher: Even if I know from church like the back of my hand (5:05:36 AM) aangelarcher: something else in me just says.... guidelines. (5:05:43 AM) aangelarcher: I don't know what that is (5:06:06 AM) aangelarcher: I don't want to be a bad angel. But, I don't think I'm falling any time soon either (5:07:46 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: No, I believe you. If it wasn't true we would all be terrified to do things like eat shellfish or grow long hair but we're not. (5:07:54 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: It's just I have a feeling too. (5:08:29 AM) aangelarcher: I mean think about Jackie, for real. Think on this (5:08:59 AM) aangelarcher: how many religions are there? like a zillion. and we know for a fact that many people from different religions are up in heaven. we've seen it (5:09:30 AM) aangelarcher: if that's so... I'm just not sure (5:09:38 AM) aangelarcher: how precise we run the words (5:10:48 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I think this is bigger than that, honestly... (5:12:30 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I mean, who else looks out for non-humans? I don't know. I feel like maybe for some reason it's a territory left without a guideline that we know about. (5:15:35 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: But it's where I feel drawn. I always wanted... more than what the human world had to offer. Now I have someone who knows it, for better or worse, and is willing to show me. And I want all of him. If the worst possible thing were true and he was the very last mothman ever, I want to preserve him as he is. It's like an entire world God forgot about, Stacey. Dying quitely. Only a very few people know about him and they're demons anyway. They won't do him any justice. If he had somehow died before I met him nobody would know he ever existed unless they discovered proof by accident. (5:17:05 AM) aangelarcher: that. (5:17:21 AM) aangelarcher: that might be one of the saddest things I've ever heard (5:19:30 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: You should see him. Looking at him breaks my heart. He's so, so perfectly beautiful, especially in his real form, that it makes me furious to think that God would just let them die this way. How could he? Make something so exquisite, and then smash it? (5:25:54 AM) aangelarcher: I don't know Jackie. (5:25:56 AM) aangelarcher: but (5:27:36 AM) aangelarcher: sometimes I think about extinction of lots of species and wonder why it's God's plan, but know it's not my place to judge when I don't know all his reasons for things. But if it's favoratism, I don't like that thought. But, I also want to trust that maybe somethings might be laid out for us to try and correct or change. (5:27:57 AM) aangelarcher: not because God believes it or does it. but because he wants us to act on it (5:28:14 AM) aangelarcher: so he puts such challenges out there for us to want to fight (5:28:24 AM) aangelarcher: even if it means bogging up his own name (5:28:28 AM) aangelarcher: at least (5:28:40 AM) aangelarcher: that's my theory that gives me hope (5:29:04 AM) aangelarcher: did that make sense? (5:33:38 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I know what Atlas would say. he'd say it's horrible to throw all those other species under the bus just to teach humans a lesson. (5:34:13 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: And I believe him. http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzekbvl6f41qile5uo1_500.gif Look at that. How can I tell him he deserves to be nothing because of someone else's mistake? (5:34:36 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: How can I tell him that he should give up his life, when what I really want to do is give him something else to hope for? (5:35:25 AM) aangelarcher: aww that's a precious smile (5:35:53 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: He has this energy, and brightness (5:36:01 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: and I don't think humans deserve to have it. (5:36:07 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Not for that. (5:38:57 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: So. I don't know why God chose his people to be so rare, and I don't know why God would set it in his path to come up against horrible people who he has no chance of defeating. I don't know why God took away what he valued the most. I don't really care. What matters is that it doesn't destroy him. That's the way I feel now. I am willing to put everything on the line for this. (5:39:50 AM) aangelarcher: the weird thing is no one's ever really heard of moth people. even if he is the last... there was never a really a time they could have been very populated (5:40:04 AM) aangelarcher: it'd be in a book somewhere before this (5:40:48 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: There must be some reason why they stayed away. He tells me that when humans see him, they're afraid of him. What if it was genocide that made them so rare? In some long ago forgotten time. (5:41:57 AM) aangelarcher: I don't think we'll ever know. (5:42:07 AM) aangelarcher: unless God wants to tell us (5:42:17 AM) aangelarcher: or an angel that's as old as (5:42:26 AM) aangelarcher: it seems like someone would know (5:43:26 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Maybe. But no matter what, it doesn't really change my mind. I'm siding against humans on this one. They did wrong. No human or demon can have his blood. (5:44:01 AM) aangelarcher: so what are you going to do now Jackie? (5:45:47 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I never really finished telling daddy, but I'm staying with Atlas. In Boston. I'm moving out and I'm not going back to Paris. Not now. Maybe not ever, I don't know. (5:46:41 AM) aangelarcher: wow. You mean like a live boyfriend or a live in ward? and are you going to enroll in school here (5:48:54 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: No, not like a ward. Maybe like a boyfriend, but he's afraid of saying things like that. I'm not going back to school right now. I'm getting a job and I'm going to try to help Atlas get his dream one day, if he'll let me. He performs in the circus, but he wants to have his own. (5:52:09 AM) aangelarcher: So you're going to tell Papa that's you're quitting school, moving in with a mothman, and really joining a circus (5:52:35 AM) aangelarcher: I'd stand behind Daddy when you do it (5:52:39 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Heheee... yep. And I told Atlas he can help me tell him. (5:52:39 AM) aangelarcher: just in case (5:53:23 AM) aangelarcher: wow. This is exciting though Jackie. (5:53:45 AM) aangelarcher: I have to meet him now. You're already moving in and I haven't even met him (5:55:54 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: It really is exciting. At first I was so upset because it went against everything I thought, too, but... I had this amazing moment of clarity when I was with him, and an amazing time in bed if I can say so, and I knew exactly what I wanted to do. What mattered. However you want to think of it. (5:55:59 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I just don't know what to say to Jean yet. (5:56:07 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: If he goes back to Paris in fall he will have to go alone... (5:59:08 AM) aangelarcher: yeah about that (6:00:05 AM) aangelarcher: Last I heard he was thinking he was going to stay on the farm and continue to do his bomb training through the online school (6:00:24 AM) aangelarcher: but JACKIE (6:00:29 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Really??? (6:00:37 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: They have online bomb training? That sounds so dangerous... (6:00:55 AM) aangelarcher: yeah, he's been doing that for a while alongside college (6:01:01 AM) aangelarcher: they do have meetings (6:01:18 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: For him it's not as worrisome, he can poof anywhere. (6:01:23 AM) aangelarcher: but, JACKIE back to you (6:01:27 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: What? (6:01:38 AM) aangelarcher: did you just say amazing time in bed :P (6:01:56 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Why, yes. Yes, I did. (6:03:43 AM) aangelarcher: Boys. You boys move along so fast (6:05:36 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: hee! Shh, but we've been doing stuff for a while now. He's really good. And sooo hot. Even Jean agrees he's hot. (6:26:50 AM) aangelarcher: He has an adorable smile when he's laughing (6:26:57 AM) aangelarcher: and for a while? (6:27:06 AM) aangelarcher: you've barely known him long at all (6:27:12 AM) aangelarcher: I'm a slow poke I guess (6:27:30 AM) aangelarcher: I date forever before I let them in that close (6:27:47 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: that's okay. You don't have to feel bad about that. (6:27:50 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: It's a good thing. (6:28:27 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I was just silly and got propositioned by someone hot so I just wanted to. I didn't really expect it to turn out this way. (6:30:22 AM) aangelarcher: I get propositioned by hot people all the time Jackie. Doesn't mean I fling down my bedsheets. Did you really think you were one nighting? I don't have the guts for that (6:30:39 AM) aangelarcher: I have to feel something (6:32:24 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Its really stupid, but when I first met Atlas I had this thing in my head that I wanted to be like Jean. I'm not weak now, I can be as good as him. I thought it was probaby the choice Jean would make. But it wasn't all that either. I already liked Atlas well enough that if it was just a one night we could still be friends. (6:34:02 AM) aangelarcher: You live with Jean Jackie. Don't you guys ever talk. I think you have the wrong idea about what he does (6:34:22 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: He doesn't like to tell me anything. He says it's to protect his partners' privacy or something. (6:34:28 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I don't know why. (6:35:05 AM) aangelarcher: maybe you should talk to him more. (6:36:02 AM) aangelarcher: I'm not sure his under the sheet details have anything to do with his motivation behind who he chooses and what kind of relationship he has with them after (6:37:02 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Yeah, he should tell me those things. i don't know why he has to keep anything from me. Didn't we all do everything together so far? If we've had a bath together naked I think we can talk about stuff. (6:38:39 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: But he was always more secretive than me anyway. He's always thinking things. I can't do it. I can't make myself lie. (6:40:12 AM) aangelarcher: maybe he's just not used to being as open considering whatever was in him that drove him to his fall, that's a pretty secretive life. we know he's ok now. but maybe old habits die hard? (6:40:43 AM) aangelarcher: even if it's about good things? (6:41:04 AM) aangelarcher: maybe he's still scared of opinions (6:41:20 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Yeah, maybe so. And it's too bad, but I can't help but think we're growing up to be really different now... (6:42:47 AM) aangelarcher: maybe since we're talking about and identifying it, maybe we can work together, and talk together, to keep us all open. I know you feel it. we're triplets Jackie. we may be different people. but we're connected. I can't imagine that cracking (6:45:29 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Yeah, of course. I still love Jean lots. (6:46:16 AM) aangelarcher: I know you do. so do I. it's just sad to hear you talk like that (6:48:05 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: it's not even really a new thing. ever since we were little I felt compared to him most, and it wasn't fair because he could do all kinds of things I couldn't. not directly, but like... when I had to stay behind while Jean did something. it was because I couldn't and I knew it. now its different and we have to be different too. (6:49:18 AM) aangelarcher: you felt compared but I don't think anyone was really comparing but you Jackie. But, what do you mean by "have to be different" (6:54:25 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: Maybe so. Still. I did it. And we have to be different because I don't have to follow in his shadow and have him teach me things. he can respect me as my own person now. (6:55:33 AM) aangelarcher: I think he'd be sad to hear you think he didn't in the first place. (6:55:53 AM) aangelarcher: but I'm glad you feel better about yourself (6:56:22 AM) Jacques Charbonneau: I don't think he means it. We're just used to it. Like sometimes he'll say one thing that feels condescending to me and it will throw me all off.