Andrew Kirin || Unicorn (unicorn_is_dead) wrote in thegrand_ic, @ 2012-02-09 20:47:00 |
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Entry tags: | andrew kirin, kareem okonwo |
Who: Kareem & Andy
What: Coming over
Where: Kareem's house
When: Thursday evening
Warning: Mentions of self-harm and suicide attempts; TBD
Andy didn't do too well around this time of year - Christmas, birthdays, Valentine's, any major holiday tended to bring him down, but in the winter months when the sun was out less, the weather was more foreboding, the sky itself grey with threat, that was just a recipe for disaster. He had more reasons to stay in with the cold and the dark and the bad wearther, which was no good because it wasn't as though he needed reasons to stay at home.
Getting out of bed on the best of days was hard enough without the added reasons to stay in. He'd made sure to keep himself busy this time around with activities that he had to do or face letting people down - the more he was out working the less time he had to be alone with his thoughts.
He'd been down on his knees sucking cock a couple of times, had fallen asleep in a motel room and woken up alone once this week, but Taj was right in saying he hadn't had any boyriends around. He'd been sleeping as much as he could, tired still when he was awake, the kind of tired that came from his very bones, distilled in his blood and manufactured in his faulty brain chemistry. It was a tiredness borne of depression and it clung to him like the disease's own familiar weight weighing down his chest.
He hadn't really seen Kareem since Taj had come back from wherever he'd been and he felt guilty for not doing so. Like all his brother's, Kareem always had a open home and an open heart for Andy, and it was still something that Andy could never believe he had.
He knocked at Kareem's door, huddled into himself in the cold in jeans and a hoodie - Chester's maybe, from a few months back - liking the fact that the door would be answered here and that he would be accepted and welcomed in.