Are you seriously whining about your childhood to me?
My mother abandoned me to the wolves almost before I could walk, and I've never met my father. And yet, you know what? I didn't kill a lot of innocent people and try to destroy the world in a fit self-pitying rage.
You don't deserve peace, and you don't deserve this life after what you've done. There are a lot of people better than you who are dead because of you.
And if you think having to do paperwork and not getting to have the childhood you wanted is proper penance for their lives, you've got another thing coming.