I just was angry about what happened at home. And I - you were the best thing in my life here. You are the best thing in my life here. And I was irrationally worrying about it happening here. It wasn't logical, it didn't have anything to do with me trusting you or not because it wasn't based in any real consideration of facts. It was entirely an emotional reaction.
And besides that, I know now it was a ridiculous emotional reaction even because there is no way it would ever happen even if he wanted to try to manipulate you.