Sharon let him go and went over to the bed, climbing onto it and sitting on her knees. She took another sip of her beer and rested the can in front of her, holding it with both hands. She looked down at it just long enough to gather her thoughts and figure out where she wanted to start.
"No, not all of it's good." She took a deep breath in and held it, looking up at Steve and shaking her head. Something swelled in her chest, a feeling, but she couldn't tell if it was sadness or anger. Usually, in her line of work, those emotions ran together like a tightly braided thread. "I told you that I helped the other Steve and a woman named Jet, I helped them escape from Dimension Z and Zola, and I stayed behind to get them out. There was an explosion, there was -- Steve thought I'd died, and you know, I did too."
She'd sacrificed her life for him, and that -- that bitch who'd known from that very day that she'd been taken captive. Back home, Rogers had opened up his home to her and Sam Wilson had offered Jet his friendship and she'd played them. She returned to Zola all the time, explaining to him the Avengers movements, plotting with Zola to take them apart. Stealing their DNA to help Zola create his own grotesque Avenger army. Zola'd let her know. He told her the details of the plan because he knew that there was nothing she could do and no way she could get to the people she cared about to tell them what was going on, what was happening. Locking her up, caging her, torturing her -- none of that was even half as bad as being made to watch her friends trust someone who was betraying them. Nothing else could have made her feel as fucking powerless.
"Steve -- it was -- it was so bad." And she couldn't do it anymore. She couldn't push down the upset or focus through the pain of those memories to stay strong. Her shoulders sagged and and her head drooped downward, her blonde hair partially hiding her face as she lifted a hand to cover her mouth with the back of a shaking wrist. Sharon really didn't want to start crying, but she just didn't have the strength right now to stop it.