I think there are a lot of them and it's taken me time working around the other things I've been working around. But I have read them, and I can give you recommendations or just - let you borrow mine. It depends on whether you want to start at the beginning or closer to the end. Not all of it is easy reading, but it might help you understand both of your son's and your daughter better.
And you can add me to the list of people who say you didn't fail. You gave everything you could, and sometimes more.