It doesn't go away, no. I think we learn how to cope with it, and we learn how to carry it and still get on with our lives, but we never forget the people we love.
But it was one thing when he was behind bars, right? Easier to pretend like it's fading when you're not facing it. Did you break anything? Because I broke someone's desk when I found out they'd been keeping a secret from me, so if you didn't do that, I'd say you're doing just fine.