As have I. I found some good people in the morass that was SHIELD, but even loyalty to that institution proved to be misplaced. Life would be much simpler if it was so easy as to find it. And it is those who believe they have found it, steady and constant, that frequently find they misjudged. Everything must be evaluated on its own grounds, each time.
Not in the same way. I do not mean your kind of relationship. But we were spies first. Our interactions were calculated. You've had near constant contact for some time, more than once.