Dorian
I know that. I do. I just... don't know where we stand. I don't know if he knows how I feel. I don't know how he feels about me. What happened between us happened when we were kids. He got scared. I think he blamed me for what happened, for how confused it made him. Told himself that I was the one who wanted it. We fought. I left the country. I deleted my email address. And we never talked about it.
Now it's just hard. It's hard to talk to him about some things. It's hard to be completely authentic with him when I don't know what will make him leave again.