Tony, the choices that you've made, the man that you are -- it never means having to give up anything forever or indefinitely. If you want something, anything. Now. Here. You can have it. It's yours, and you deserve it and you deserve what you want at least as much as anyone else. More than some.
I was raised in a different time. Marriage -- it was a business transaction, or an excuse to get in bed with someone holding out for something stupid. Or a sign of youthful infatuation. I was engaged, once, once because I thought I was in love and she swallowed acid because I realised I was only in love with who I thought she was. I haven't thought of it since because I haven't felt -- anything. Actually. Anything. For anyone. Until you.