Tony | Dorian
Yes, I have been speaking to Darla and Connor as well. I like Connor a great deal and Darla -- well, as I said. I didn't ask you about the chip because I don't think we ought to force anything on her. We've talked enough about what you did before during the war for me to know it isn't a good idea no matter what the circumstances. If Darla becomes a problem, then maybe we ought to consider it -- or magic, or something. But just yet... right now she's... She's being pleasant to me, but if she thinks for one hair of a second that I don't know what her game is, she obviously doesn't know who she's talking to.
Angel is incredibly easy to manipulate. I know. I did it. I got him exactly where I wanted him the first time we met. I...I'm not playing him any more, but I can't expect that she isn't, and that he'll let her because he thinks he owes it to his son. Which -- well. We don't need to talk about what makes a parent and what doesn't -- but giving birth to someone isn't enough. He's in a vulnerable position right now and I can't just... sit back and hope he doesn't screw up in all the ways he's bound to.
Sam Winchester is Angel's friend, apparently now he's also my friend and for some reason thinks I'm... full of feelings and that I'd never manipulate people. It's sweet really -- I keep having to fight the urge to fluff his hair.
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Everything happened at once. Both with Angel and with you -- In Chicago...God. In Chicago. If you'd asked me to run away with you I would have said yes. I was yours, I've always been yours -- but you didn't. We all came home, nothing changed. You can tell me that you wanted things to change, you can tell me that you were in turmoil about the decisions you had made and wanted to make -- you can. But Steve left, he forgot everything, and it was only after that that you decided to speak up, and no matter what you say -- that will always be true...
And so it's hard for me not to be afraid that all of this is happening like it did before, and afraid you're -- Tony, I know you wouldn't do it on purpose, but you never meant to before, did you. I trust you -- but I can't help but be ...shy.
I haven't always been good to you. I know that. I've twisted the knife been cruel on purpose and it's because of the way that I feel about you, the feelings I have for you, and I am so -- so worried that I'm going to hurt you ... a lot worse than I have already. It's what I do, Darling, and it's what I do best.