On the one hand, I can sympathize with this. I'm a clone - no use hiding it, it's all over the internet - and we were being hunted by a genetic identical. So do how you keep yourself in control? I don't know, man. I kind of don't. I'm all over the place emotionally, and I flip flop between following the science, and just wanted to get the hell out of dodge. In the end, I pretty much stick to what I know, and that's that only I can fix myself.