I understand that. Sometimes it's best to accept the parts of ourselves we don't really like but...it's part of who we are, like you said. At least you can admit it.
You have a son? How old are you -- vampire wise, I mean? Is he a vampire, too?
Yeah, she did. She was my life. There are other vampires in my world who aren't just mindless killers. But we have those, too. It really depends a lot on what a person was like before they were turned. Their personalities are amplified as a vampire. So if the person was a killer at heart before they were turned...then they're probably not going to be the kind of vampire a person would want to run into.