Well, if you're this worried about her reaction, then I think we have a good reason to worry about me getting hurt no matter when you do it, right? Even though she was gone and you were miserable and I made you happy again. It's not like you cheated. There's no reason for her to even be angry with anyone. If this is the kind of thing that'll make her so angry you're worried she might hurt me, that's really not a good situation for any of us to be in.