Well, I read the books about your world's magic before I got here, so I'd still have that understanding of it. And I don't think there's ever been a time in my life when I haven't been willing to go to great lengths to figure out the truth, even if it's unpleasant. If anything, knowing that I was the one who'd forgotten rather than being the one observing it happen should only make me more motivated to find out what the hell is going on. I don't like leaving questions like that unanswered.