A few tears dropped from her eyes and she shook her head sharply. "No, no, not at all. God, Pete." Kitty laughed but it was an empty sound. Of course he would think it was his fault. She still remembered the look on his face. You said you loved me. Tough and fierce Pete Wisdom, jaded and hard, nothing got through to him. Except for her, and she didn't think he opened himself again to anyone since. "It was me."
She started to reach out for his hand again, but stopped herself, feeling it wasn't her place anymore. "We were doing great, so of course I had to be an idiot. SHIELD called me in, there was an Ogun problem, that's ... a long story. He's a bad guy from my past." When she was turned into a ninja and almost lost her mind, yeah, spelled bad times for sure. "There was this guy. Nothing happened, but I was confused. I thought if I loved you, how could I find someone else attractive? You know you were my first ... serious anything." In that regard, Kitty was young. Piotr was a childhood crush that never really amounted to anything. Pete was her first. Everything.
"I told you, things got bad with the team, they got worse with us, and I let you leave. I should've begged you to stay." Kitty thought about how she screwed up for a long time afterward and how she'd do it differently. "I'm sorry. I screwed up. I'm the right git."