I would not cause such grief to one I love, to love them here then abandon them if or when the tesseract decides my time is done. That would be such an unimaginable cruelty. But... I have the love of my dearest friend and that is enough. For nigh on 1800 years of the Sun he has been at my side.
I seek not to make excuses, but if you would allow me to explain. I do not do well amongst Men. As you see, I fail to understand them, as you and many others have pointed out.
I think it best to keep to my own company as such. But marriage is celebrated and you are blessed indeed to have found love so dear.