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Tweak says, "please don't go"

Illyana Nikolievna Rasputina | Magik (snowflakeinhell) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2017-05-26 23:19:00

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!network post, illyana rasputina / magik (616), sam winchester

Network Post: Illyana Rasputina
While I was in quarantine, some of you asked if I remembered Mount Weather. I didn't at the time. The "pod god" or whatever handles memories apparently saw fit to change that now that I'm out. Or perhaps my physiology made it tricky to incorporate them at first? I'm literally a new person from who I was back then. I remember spending several months there when I was in my teens.

I'm really unclear on who here knew me there, with a few exceptions, so sorry if it seems like I don't know you. It's hard to know if I do or not. Oops?

[Sam Winchester, in Russian]

Hello, Sam. Did you learn Russian?

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bornunder
2017-05-27 03:33 am UTC (link)

Oh

ILLYANA

Я учился, но с тех пор я много тренировался.

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	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 03:36 am UTC (link)
	[in Russian] Not bad. I'd say I missed you, but... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 03:38 am UTC (link)
	Все нормально. People forget. It's not your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 03:41 am UTC (link)
	Is Dean here? Alive and not a demon? He wasn't doing well before. Do you remember what I told you about my soul? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 03:43 am UTC (link)
	He was. He left right before you came. But he got cured, both here and at home. [...] It's in pieces, right? In half? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 03:46 am UTC (link)
	Damn it to the leaving, but that's awesome to the curing. It was. And then it was gone entirely. But I have it all back now. It's mine, nobody's to use. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 03:50 am UTC (link)
	He's come and gone a few times. He'll probably be back. Bobby and Jo are here - I don't remember if you met them. And Kate. That's awesome. That you have it all back, I mean. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 03:57 am UTC (link)
	I hope sooner rather than later. Oh, Kate is here... It's very awesome. It was a lot of work to get it back, and unfortunately I hurt a lot of people on the way, but I'm whole. It took awhile to get used to that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sam and Illyana

bornunder
2017-05-27 04:00 am UTC (link)

Me too. [...] Kate and I actually got married in space. Which is not legal here, so we were going to do it again, but [...] it's weird without Dean. But I think we might do it anyway.

That sounds very much like what happened when I ended up without my soul and had to get it back. Which is [...] actually in the future, but I got the memories of it awhile back. I think I told you that story already, but if you don't remember, I can tell it again. And you can tell me more about what you've been through, if you want.

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	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 04:03 am UTC (link)
	Wait, wait. Married. In space. You got married in space. Do you have pictures of your space wedding? That doesn't sound familiar, so either you didn't or I'm not remembering it very well. You go first. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sam and Illyana

bornunder
2017-05-27 04:14 am UTC (link)

Yeah, I do. I'll text you some of them.

Did I tell you how I accidentally set Lucifer free from his cage? Because that has actually happened for me. Anyway, the way to put him back was to let him possess me, take back control, and jump back into the cage. Cas - did you meet Cas? - tried to rescue me, but he left my soul behind. It was in hell for about a year. Getting it back required making a deal with Death, and it ended up breaking my brain when I got all the memories of being tortured in hell. But Cas ended up fixing that.

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	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 04:19 am UTC (link)
	Wow. You really embraced the space thing, huh? I knew about the Lucifer thing, and yes I remember Cas, but the rest of that stuff sounds new. Having your soul experience hell independently from your body sounds like a LOT to integrate. Did he leave your soul on purpose? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 04:32 am UTC (link)
	I'd say those were the only clothes we had access to, but - it would be a lie. No, he left it by accident. And he ended up taking on a lot of my madness himself, to make up for it, and to keep it from breaking me entirely. Hell memories are [...] not fun. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 04:36 am UTC (link)
	You chose to look like silly space people? Wow again. I know. Not exactly what you went through, of course, but I know what a hell dimension does to a person, especially over time. How are you with that now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 05:00 am UTC (link)
	We needed something silly. It was pretty gloomy up there. I've got memories of memories, so [...] I'm fine now. What about you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 05:05 am UTC (link)
	I've been to space before, didn't love it. How long were you there? A bit of a remove to them, then? I've been mostly good. I've done a lot to help my people. But some things have been terrible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sam and Illyana

bornunder
2017-05-27 05:12 am UTC (link)

A couple of months, I think? It was hard to keep track. Some of it was alright. I have pictures of me and Dean inside the nose of a giant alien head that had become a planet. And Kate got to use an avatar on Pandora. But it was harder when we were just stuck on our ship. We got attacked by their security robots, and by a giant acid alien, and [...] some of our people who went off on escape pods didn't come back.

I'm glad you've been mostly good, at least. Sorry for the terrible parts.

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	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 05:14 am UTC (link)
	Sounds pretty ridiculous. I'd like to see those pictures. Did those people get lost? Have you ever had to kill a child? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 05:19 am UTC (link)
	I have them on my computer. I'll email them to you. [...] No, they were killed by the alien. There were a couple times I thought I would have to. But no, I haven't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 05:23 am UTC (link)
	Somehow I thought we'd have a "get out of death free" card. Oh. I won't go on about it, then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 05:26 am UTC (link)
	Well, we've managed to evade death more than once. But not everyone. I don't have to know exactly what it's like to be able to understand what you've been through. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 05:33 am UTC (link)
	I'll tell you more about it later, okay? Have you met my best friend? She's here. Kitty Pryde. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-27 05:35 am UTC (link)
	Okay. I don't think I've talked to her, actually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 05:39 am UTC (link)
	Well, you can change that. We played a prank today. There's this guy Peter Quill from a different reality. In ours, he was her ex-fiancé. I have much more control of my magic than I did in Mount Weather, and I gave him a hot seat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 01:59 am UTC (link)
	He must have done something to deserve that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:03 am UTC (link)
	She talked me down from a demon summoning, but it turns out that wouldn't have worked like I thought anyway. In Mount Weather, there was no Limbo, only the Fade. Here there's something else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:08 am UTC (link)
	That bad, huh? [...] This is the first I've heard about that. What's the something else? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:10 am UTC (link)
	Nobody gets to break her heart. It looks like a hell dimension of some kind, but not one that I've seen before, and I've seen plenty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:11 am UTC (link)
	You're a good friend. Oh yeah. That. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:13 am UTC (link)
	"Oh yeah, that?" So you know something. What do you know about it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:16 am UTC (link)
	At Halloween, people got pulled into it through the corn maze. I went in to help get them out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:26 am UTC (link)
	Sounds like quite a big "trick." Would you be up for risking going in with me to see if it's the same one from the corn maze? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:27 am UTC (link)
	You can get us back out, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:30 am UTC (link)
	Of course! But if it'd make you feel better, I could open a scrying portal instead of a stepping disc. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:31 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, I'll take the lower risk option since there isn't actually anyone in there that needs saving. Not that I don't trust you. Because I do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:35 am UTC (link)
	[...] Thank you. I can count the number of times anyone's said they trust me. That means a LOT. But we both know how things can go really wrong while we're... what are we calling it now? Still pod people? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:37 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, it's the way powers can get messed with that I don't trust. And the way hell dimensions can go wrong even if your powers are fine, because... it's a hell dimension. I'd rather not risk going in there if I don't have to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:45 am UTC (link)
	So you aren't going to join my hell dimension sports team? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:47 am UTC (link)
	Technically, if you and me and Buffy - and a few others - ended up joining a sports team up here, we could call ourselves the hell dimension team. Because we've all been there. \ But sports in hell? I'd get heatstroke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana snowflakeinhell 2017-05-28 02:51 am UTC (link)
	Let's do it! I don't know what sport yet but something! Or some kind of game team? Well, we'll put in a swimming pool to cool off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam and Illyana bornunder 2017-05-28 02:57 am UTC (link)
	The only sports I've played are soccer and the demigod version of capture the flag. But I mean, we've been to hell, we ought to be able to conquer a sport. Well, in that case. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	electrodynamic 2017-05-27 03:59 am UTC (link)
	That can happen? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 04:00 am UTC (link)
	I guess? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	electrodynamic 2017-05-27 04:08 am UTC (link)
	I guess so. That's interesting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	snowflakeinhell 2017-05-27 04:10 am UTC (link)
	I'm not an expert on this, but I take it it's not usual? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	alwaystoolate 2017-05-29 02:12 am UTC (link)
	You remember a time before you came here in a totally different world that wasn't your own to begin with? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	snowflakeinhell 2017-05-31 03:21 am UTC (link)
	You say that like it's an unusual thing. (Reply to this) (Parent)