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Anakin Skywalker (balancetheforce) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2017-03-18 19:54:00

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ahsoka tano, anakin skywalker

Private Message: Anakin to Ahsoka
Hi.

I don't know what to say. I miss you.

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	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not sorry that I told you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	~~You should b~~ Why not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	I failed you once by leaving. I won't do it again, and I will fight to keep my best friend Anakin Skywalker from being destroyed by Darth Vader with every fiber of my being. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 08:09 pm UTC (link)
	I will fight to never harm you. Why do refer to Anakin and Vader as separate people? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	I stand by my decision to leave the Jedi, but I should never have left you. Because Vader does. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 08:31 pm UTC (link)
	I think you made the right decision to leave the Order; I see that now. But I wish you never left me. That is not how I think now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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snipps
2017-03-18 08:37 pm UTC (link)

How could I stay when the Order did not believe in me enough? When the Order had given itself so completely to playing politics in the war. There were many mistakes made, and while I believe the Council acted as it saw as the best course, they were acting out of politics, not diplomacy. They preach that attachment is wrong, but compassion is something Jedi strive for. How can you have compassion without gaining attachment? This is why I left, and this is why I cannot call myself a Jedi.

No, but embracing Vader means that you will eventually give yourself over to it. You will lose yourself in it. ~~That way you did on Morti~~

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	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 08:46 pm UTC (link)
	They should have supported you, not accused you, and damn the Senate and everyone else wanting them to scapegoat you. If they truly had compassion, they would have cared what that did to you. I wish I had left with you, for what they did to you, but I was afraid. I'm sorry. I don't understand. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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snipps
2017-03-18 08:50 pm UTC (link)

You were the only one who believed in me. I would have been found guilty and sentenced to death. If you hadn't believed in me, I wouldn't be alive now. How could I fault you for staying?

I think — it's difficult to explain, but I believe that at some point, you dissociate Anakin from Vader. My guess would be because Anakin couldn't live with himself with the things that Vader did. It doesn't have to be like that. You can be like me, neither Jedi or Sith.

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	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	If I hadn't been able to prove your innocence, I would have found some other way to save you. Whatever it took. How would I do that-- be like you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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snipps
2017-03-18 09:30 pm UTC (link)

I know that. I'm grateful that it didn't come to that.

After the Republic fell, I hid on an Outer Rim planet called Thabeska. I took on the name Ashla. I fixed mechanics and droids. I did not use the Force. The Empire was looking for any leftover Jedi, and while I wasn't one, I was still Force Sensitive. The Empire, like the Sith Lord during the Clone Wars, was looking for all Force sensitive children. On Empire Day, the children of the Fardi family, whom I had befriended, came to warn me of an impending visit from the Empire. Anyone who had not lived there yet a year was going to be invited to a dinner. I took off. I stole one of the Fardi's ships and left the world behind.

As it turns out, the Sixth Brother was the honored guest, selected to smoke out any Force sensitive people or leftover Jedi. I left without thinking, and it wasn't until I was on Raada that guilt began to eat at me. I left Hedala Fardi behind. She'd seen me use my powers just once on Thabeska when some of her family members were playing on crates. They all fell and I made sure none of them were injured. Hedala must have sensed me; she began demonstrating signs that she was strong with the Force. Moving objects, playing games much better than her older siblings, jumping higher. Do you know what it's like to know that you left a three year old child with no defense in the hands of one of the Empire's Inquisitors?

So I fought. I fought against oppression, I fought against the destruction of a whole system. I fought against the Empire. I fought against what I knew to be wrong: slavery, coercion, threats, betrayals, the displays of power meant to keep the people of the Galaxy cowed to the Emperor's will.

And if there comes a time that I have to fight for myself, then I will do so. Until then, I fight for those who cannot fight for themselves. I find that there is balance is friendship, in attachments, even if it makes me not what a Jedi ought to be.

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	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 09:44 pm UTC (link)
	No, I don't know what that's like, and I wish you didn't. That is what I've always wanted to do. Fight against the wrongs of the galaxy, protect those who can't fight and need us, and the Jedi put limits on that. I probably was exactly the wrong person to try to teach anyone the Jedi view of attachments. I could never give up mine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	You were the right person as Master for me, Anakin. I think Master Yoda knew what he was doing when he paired us together as Master and Padawan. We are a lot alike in many ways. I wouldn't change that for all the beebleberry ice cream in the Galaxy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	[...] Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	You were the only reason I would have stayed with the Jedi. You know what, right? You were the only reason I didn't want to leave. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 10:00 pm UTC (link)
	I need you, Ahsoka. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 10:02 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not leaving you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	I want to believe you. Obi-Wan said there is no middle ground. That if I don't turn from the dark side, I will lose everything and everyone. No compromise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	Master Obi-Wan has no room to speak about middle ground. Ask him about his love affair with the Duchess. Why do you think Maul chose to take over Mandalore? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 10:42 pm UTC (link)
	I know about them, yes. Then you don't agree with him about that...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	I am no Jedi, nor Sith. Of course I don't agree with him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Would you help me, then? To not become [...] someone who could kill you, but not have to give up this power, either? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-18 10:52 pm UTC (link)
	I will do anything I can to help you. I had already made up my mind when you arrived. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-18 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, Ahsoka. It seems the apprentice has become the master. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. snipps 2017-03-19 12:08 am UTC (link)
	I prefer equals. We can both teach each other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	same filter. balancetheforce 2017-03-19 12:09 am UTC (link)
	I would like that. (Reply to this) (Parent)