HEED THE CONTENT WARNINGS, YO.
I know. I feel like you should know what kind of person you're dating as we get further into this in case
Reynard didn't let me live by accident. I found out later I was pregnant. Apparently demi-god abortions aren't something human doctors can handle and when I went to the clinic to take care of it the doctor killed herself in front of me rather than go through with the procedure.
I found a couple of witchdoctors that could do it, but they wanted two million in gold bars for the procedure. And when I didn't have that kind of money on me they summoned monsters to murder me so I wouldn't live to carry the pregnancy to term.
I went to Quentin and his friends, they needed money to fund a war in Fillory so we robbed a bank together. But the procedure went wrong and took an important part of my soul along with it. I told you about shades.
Reynard did the same thing to someone else forty years ago. She used the power boost of the pregnancy to banish him from Earth. And since I no longer had a shade I didn't really feel or care about right from wrong anymore. We found out the demigod born 40 years ago was a US Senator. We kidnapped him to try and figure out how to harness his innate power (I actually just wanted to straight up murder him at the time) in order to kill Reynard.
I was kind of hard to deal with as a magical sociopath so Quentin took me to Fillory after my recklessness almost got me found and killed by Reynard. Fillory was at war, couldn't move their army through a forest of sentient trees so I thought it was a great idea to just burn them down and kill them all. I went back to Earth shortly after that.
Reynard found out about his son and came for him. I found out Alice was a niffin that was attached to Q, Alice and I made a deal and all Q had to do was release Alice. She was powerful enough as a niffin to kill Reynard. But Q wouldn't and I almost got him killed and I couldn't even feel bad about it at the time.
But I tried. I figured out how not to just with my worst impulses. Mostly by picturing how horrified I thought Q's face would look given any course of action. We found out the missing part of my soul was in the Underworld, Q and I went but found out Alice's was too. We could only take one back with us, so we restored Alice.
Penny found a restricted book in a magic library with a spell capable of killing a god, but touching the book poisoned and eventually killed him. Kady and I tricked Reynard to coming to us. I had created a god killing bullet with the spell to finish him off, but his mother, Persephone, intervened in the last moment and begged for his life.
And not that I could really feel right from wrong, I chose not to kill him. I let Persephone take him away. As a thank you she gave me back my shade. But Kady never really forgave me for that.
I told you about what happened after, how we killed a god to save Fillory, lost magic but I somehow still have it. I am pretty sure it has something to do with Reynard or Persephone but I try not to think to hard about it.