Re: Matt + Tony
Probably not the rocks, we're all a little on edge. Keith is about to climb on our roof, I think. [...] It would be good to see you, though.
[...] It's hard to explain. I [...] think I told you about how when I got kidnapped, Shiro saved me from the arena? [...] But I don't like to talk about what it was like after that. A lot of it is because there's not much of importance to tell, I was just finding my footing with the rebels, figuring out how their tech worked, that kind of thing. But it was also just [...] really hard, carrying the weight of his life around. Trying not to imagine what had happened to him in the arena. It was almost worse to think about him still being alive, and what might have happened to him, and the things he had to do to survive. I just [...] ran away from the guilt of it, tried to do the kind of things he would have done, to fight the Galra. And I did try to talk to the rebels about going back for him, or the others, sometimes, but we never had the manpower or the supplies for that, it would have just gotten more good people killed.
But then Pidge found me, and it turned out that for a lot of that time, Shiro had been with her and the rest of the team, and they were all doing well. So I finally let a lot of that go. [...] Or thought I did.
Pidge woke me up and told me something had happened to Shiro last night, and it just all kind of [...] hit me in the gut. It's probably really stupid how awful I feel just for sleeping through it, even though I couldn't have really done anything more in the middle of the night than I'm doing now, but [...] I still feel awful about it. And I kind of got mad at Pidge, which only made it worse.