In that case, yes, I am fairly confident I can make your kitchen work for me. And hopefully I'll be able to help you as well.
I think [...] that might be part of my problem. I don't truly believe I can do it. I feel like I should have believed it at some point, but I don't really remember anymore. It's been a very long time since I started training.
I wonder if it would help to try to access those emotions while practicing? Or maybe I have to try it when there is that kind of pressure? I might do as much harm as good if I tried that, though.