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napoleon solo has never seen a cow in his life ([info]outlawthief) wrote in [info]thedisplaced,
@ 2018-06-03 23:38:00

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Entry tags:gaby teller, illya kuryakin, napoleon solo

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Rogue's going through something right now and it's making me realize that there are some things I don't want not being said before it's too late.

I have some ridiculously strong feelings for you two. I'm certain that it's love. You don't have to say anything in return, but I thought I'd put that out there before I lost my nerve. All I know is that I don't want one of us going somewhere before I had a chance to say that. I expect nothing to come from this, I'm not looking to change our relationships with one another, but I couldn't keep this to myself any longer.


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[info]redperilous
2018-06-04 11:02 pm UTC (link)
...

I am not sure what to say to this. Thank you for telling us.

When you say love, do you mean in the romantic sense?

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:05 pm UTC (link)
You are not required to say anything, Illya.

I do.

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-04 11:10 pm UTC (link)
Gaby as well?

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:12 pm UTC (link)
Gaby as well. I know, it's quite greedy of me.

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-04 11:15 pm UTC (link)
I did not know this.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:16 pm UTC (link)
I honestly thought you would catch on, with the outrageous flirting I was engaging her with in front of you.

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-04 11:21 pm UTC (link)
I noticed, but I brushed it off. Thought you were trying to irritate me, maybe.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:23 pm UTC (link)
That wasn't my intention. Were you irritated?

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-04 11:30 pm UTC (link)
Not very much. I knew that you two are friends, and Gaby and my relationship is strong.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:31 pm UTC (link)
Tell me if my line of questioning isn't welcomed, either of you, but how did it make you feel, if not irritated?

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-05 12:01 am UTC (link)
... I am not sure. You know that it is difficult for me with feelings.

I was not mad though. It seemed... okay.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 12:09 am UTC (link)
Did any part of you like it?

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Napoleon
[info]redperilous
2018-06-05 12:17 am UTC (link)
Perhaps.

I do not wish to hurt Gaby's feelings in this. I love her very much. It took me a long time to convince her of this.

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ILLYA/NAPOLEON.
[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 12:22 am UTC (link)
I will step back then, but it changes none of what I feel. If you decide you feel something more for me and Gaby does as well, I will be here.

If not, I understand.

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ILLYA/NAPOLEON.
[info]redperilous
2018-06-05 12:24 am UTC (link)
All of us together?

Is that...? Would that even work?

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Re: ILLYA/NAPOLEON.
[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 12:26 am UTC (link)
Only if you care for me like you care for Gaby. Only if she cares for me as she cares for you.

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ILLYA/NAPOLEON.
[info]redperilous
2018-06-05 12:28 am UTC (link)
Would one of us not get jealous of another?

I would have to speak with her about this, Napoleon, to see if it is what she would want. If it is what we would want.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 12:35 am UTC (link)
I'm unfiltering this because if this has even a chance of working, we all need to be clear and honest with each other.

I can't predict your feelings, I can't know what you feel, but I do know that when I see you two together I do not feel jealous of her for having you or jealous of you for having her. I feel longing. Not for what you have, but longing to be there with you two.

I'm not asking you to destroy what you have. If you don't want what I want, if your feelings for me were just physical like I had feared before, you don't have to do anything. I won't push. But if there's a chance that you love me too, if she does as well, I want to see where it could go.

Because I know I don't imagine the looks ti two send me sometimes. I just can't tell if they're just based in lust or something more.

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[info]redperilous
2018-06-07 10:54 pm UTC (link)
Let me speak with Gaby about this.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-04 11:10 pm UTC (link)
I am with Illya on this one, Napoleon. I truly do not know how to respond. You said no response is necessary in return, but this is not the sort of thing a person can hear and then go on as if she hasn't. I knew of your feelings for Illya, but I must say that your confession of having them for me as well has caught me by surprise.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:14 pm UTC (link)
I'm not going to tell you how you should deal with hearing this, but if you chose to go on without anything changed, I would accept that. I would understand that and would never hold it against you.

But I will also confess that I do hope this changes things, for the better. For all of us to be closer.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-04 11:23 pm UTC (link)
Closer than we already are. That's very suggestive, as I think you intended it to be.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:26 pm UTC (link)
Not just physically. Physically is easy. I think it's obvious that the other parts are where we have trouble.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-04 11:37 pm UTC (link)
Well you are not wrong about that. I am interesting in hearing what it is you are suggesting.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-04 11:40 pm UTC (link)
In the ideal world, I'd be able to be with both of you in the romantic sense. It's not something I ever thought would be possible.

But it is, if we let it.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-05 12:43 am UTC (link)
You make it sound so simple.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 12:47 am UTC (link)
Why can't it be?

Am I imagining things? Is this all in my head? If it is, tell me so I can move on.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-05 01:08 am UTC (link)
I cannot put a label on what I feel as quickly and as easily as you do. I do care for you, Napoleon. But I'm unsure if those feelings could be put to use in the way you want them to be.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-05 01:10 am UTC (link)
Trust me when I say that the realizations I had were over the course of the past few months rather than one night. So take your time, see if this is something you're interested in exploring. I won't push either way and will be here if you decide things need to change.

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[info]recruitable
2018-06-06 01:19 am UTC (link)
Very well. I will give it some thought. Clearly Illya and I have things to discuss.

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[info]outlawthief
2018-06-06 01:58 am UTC (link)
Of course.

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