ronsey
Yeah, and then you had a whole life to live, and you were having a goddamn blast running around wherever you wanted. I could tell. And I didn't want to go anywhere, I still don't. I can't ask you to stay any more than you can ask me to leave. [...] I left for Adam, but not permanently, because I was afraid he wouldn't come back, because I didn't want to be all by myself with my dream things. You and Adam still both might leave me alone there, and I can't stay away forever. Physically, I can't. I have to be able to dream or I'll fucking die, and everywhere but the Barns is stifling, even if some places are better than others, and having you all around helps.
I want both, all of it. But you all have things you want too, as badly as I want the Barns. I can't ask any of you to give up any of those things.