I don't know, you keep commenting back, figured you wanted a pep talk because why else bother??
I can get turned into a murder robot if the right person comes along, but I stopped giving a shit about that. What's the point of worrying about shit you can't control? Focus on what you're doing right (enjoying your life here) and forget whatever's waiting for you if you ever get sent back. Not worth anyone's time, honestly. Go do what other 18 years do - smoke, drink, party, get laid.