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Of course he was too close to it. He loved Jean, Jean was the Phoenix, he loved the Phoenix, the Phoenix was Jean and she died calling his name, etc. It was personal and it was messy.
Nobody ever remembers the good we did. Just what we got wrong, when we were full of power instead of humanity. I know what it is when power fills the parts of you where your soul should be. I've been there before, as the Darkchilde, but never with so much power. I never before had the ability to have even just a stray impulse become reality. And for that brief time, he was the only Phoenix. He had all that power, and all that emotion with it.