» Yeah, I know » I’m sorry. I know I should say this in person but I’m here and I just » Did you talk to » I’m so tired. » I didn’t mean to fight, I just got snippy » He thinks our new roommate is dangerous and he wants to move » But everyone thinks I’m dangerous too and it feels wrong not to give this guy a chance » I don’t think he’s really upset. He came back and kissed me goodnight before leaving but I haven’t been able to sleep cause I’m afraid he’s going to realize he doesn’t want me and that I am too dangerous or too difficult and that his life would be better without me » I always lose people or push them away and I’m left with nothing that’s solid and El’s been so solid