I didn't expect to fall in love with Wendy. If she'd have been someone I'd met anywhere other than where I did, I maybe could have given her something closer to the truth. But [...] she was in the same company that I was. We didn't work in the same divisions, of course, but we had a similar circle of friends. Part of my 'alias' was pretending I had no one. I didn't want to make up lies about why I never had family come around. In retrospect, I could have probably said that you all lived too far to visit periodically, but I didn't want questions. It was important I didn't get questions about who I was or where I came from.
I just [...] didn't tell people about you. It was easier. Only I didn't intend to really ever fall for Wendy and by the time I realized it was something I might want to keep as a long term thing, how was I supposed to go back and correct my actions? I began our relationship with lies built on lies and so I kept them going.
When she told me about Helena, we were close to our end. We both knew it and Helena was what made use decide to severe our relationship. We didn't want to try to maintain a relationship just for her when we knew in our hearts it wasn't working. But I didn't [...] I didn't know how to go back and tell Wendy the truth. And I was so fixated on trying to figure out how to handle Wendy ever possibly finding out about our world, about magic, that I kept putting off telling you all about Helena's inpending arrival.
And then she was here and there was custody arrangements and [...] I just [...] I was afraid of losing her. And she was here now and I didn't know how to tell you all that I hadn't told you and I just kept putting it off and the longer and longer I put it off [...]
I know that's a bunch of excuses and I'll understand if it makes you change your opinion of me. I just [...] I didn't want you to find out from someone else.
I eventually come clean. I eventually tell you. I don't know how you react back home but I know [...] Lily says it was all going to be alright. I don't know if she was trying to keep me calm by telling me that, because I hadn't seen Helena in so long when Lily showed up in the Mountain with her, but [...]I hope you forgive me.